Hi Nexians,
I'm doing kind of a survey as I want to try and find out if this realm is as real as I think it is.
Yesterday I loaded 'The Machine' with a very large dose of my recent extraction.
It's been around a year since I've smoked any spice. I was nervous all day, as I'd made up my mind that I was going to sample the fruits of my labour that night.
I consider myself to be extremely lucky as I breakthrough virtually every time. The only times I haven't were when I did it in a trivial setting, not stopping to give intention. Anyway, everytime I break through, I always end up in the same realm with the same entities. I would describe them as fairy/elf, very McKenna-esque. (I haven't listened to McKenna incessantly for ages,) however I used to listen to him loads before ever trying DMT. I often wonder whether or not this has influenced me. Therefore implying that this realm
is just a very convincing hallucination. Or whether this is just the realm that I belong in.
Anyway, what was making me nervous about smoking it were two things. One, would I end up in the same fun realm that I'm used to. Or would I end up somewhere dark. Previously I've only ever smoked the same batch of spice. I wondered whether my own creation would have a different effect.
I decided I'd leave it until the moment really called me. Then I started reading the 'anxiety before hyperspace' thread. I embraced my fears and hit the machine, very hard.
I don't know how long I was toking for but it felt like a very long time. The same familiar entities began to appear before I'd even closed my eyes.
YES, success. I was back in my old familiar realm. Only this time it was realer than ever. I won't bore you with the colours/details etc. I think most of you guys get it.
Here's where it gets weird, and different to the previous times I've visited.
At one point (and this happened the last time I brokethrough as well) I ended up in what can only be described as a strip club. There were female entities everywhere trying to seduce me. The etheral/spiritual love that I'd felt from the other entities in that realm had gone, and it was a very debauched and carnal feeling. They would come right up to my face and were telepathically saying stuff like, "come on you know you want it." I most certainly did not. I wanted to be back with the spiritual ones. I tried to meditate and tried to focus on God, while telepathically trying to summon the other entities. Now I'm not religious and I wasn't scared. I just didn't want to be in this, what only felt like a sinful place. However focusing my attention on God or the good entities didn't seem to make any difference.
My girlfriend was next to me in bed at the time. I remember thinking "F***, I hope she can't read my mind."
After this part of the experience ended, I was whisked back to the good place, beautiful colours, nice entities etc. I opened my eyes and was actually able to remember some English at this point. "How long" I mumbled to my girlfriend. She said it had been ten minutes, it was still going mind blowingly strong. I had my eyes open and the bedroom was absolutley crammed with entities.
At the twelve minute mark it took a fairly dark turn, shadow like entities were coming to me, seemingly trying to scare me. It didn't work and we ended up locked in a kind of emotional stalemate. At this point the only thing that was genuinally scaring me was the thought that it might never wear off. However it did and here I am.
My question is this, has anyone else been to this almost pornographic side of things?
It makes me question whether this is a real place or if it's just my subconcious manifesting things. However I assure you that this isn't the kind of thing I'm after, not based on any kind of moral standard. (I've been to plenty of strip clubs etc when I was younger) It's just not who I am. So why would entities that seemingly exist in a completely different plane, try and entice/seduce me with such earthly pursuits, and to what end.
I really want to know if anyone else has experienced anything similar.
"Better safe than sectioned."