After many unsuccessful attempts of late... and a looming fear of having a bad trip (I tend to have messy thoughts when I don't intake enough for a BT dose), I just felt tonight was the night.
...I loaded up with 1 cone of DMT-eLeaf (1:1) in the small water-bong...
My setting was good. Pure silence. Sitting up on the mattress opposite each other, my wife is there recovering from her blastoff moment before..
"OK..(I thought)... try to hold it in for 30 seconds this time.."
I punched... held my breath and laid back. "One...two...three.." I counted.
I could see my vision waning... that familiar feeling was coming.... I blew out but was already too far gone to see if there was any smoke visible..
I broke through...
I could feel myself on a 3 or 4 dimensional plane... the closest way I can describe the shape of this "realm" was to think of 'sling' wrapped around and supporting a broken arm, or a long half-pipe that bent in a arc shape.
I had this OVERWHELMING feeling of a nurturing presence over me, holding me in her embrace. At first I thought it was my wife, I open my eyes and I could see her opposite me, laying down... it wasn't her..
The I could both feel and hear the sound of a womans voice. The sound that your lover makes when they are caressing you in your most intimate moments.... that slow, tired "mmmmm" sound.
...again I thought it was my wife, only to open my eyes and find out it wasn't.
then it was over.... I could feel everything coming back to reality. my senses coming back. yawning feels detached somehow... swallowing is a little strange..
..slowly everything starts to feel dull and bland again.... we headed into the bedroom and had awesome sex. Kissing felt so amazing! (to say the least)
This molecule never ceases to amaze me..... and I feel more at ease again around her (DMT)
Throughout recorded time and long before, trees have stood as sentinels, wise yet silent, patiently accumulating their rings while the storms of history have raged around them --The living wisdom of trees, Fred Hageneder