Hello, I'm wondering.

There comes a time, sometimes when everything changes. Almost at the drop of a hat, everything you've studied, worked up to, accomplished etc, anything, doesnt matter anymore. Looking back, it may as well have been another person rather than yourself. Im talking a ccomplete reset...

So here's the rub. As we all know, bills, grub, shelter etc. its tough to get around these things. And we all know that all comes back to money, and that all comes back to interactions... Im sick of it. New chapter here I come.

No more selling my time, my life, or my peace of mind for a few dollars to go get a sammich to keep me alive to go work to go get a sammich to keep me strong enough to work to....20 years later Ive wasted my life to get sammiches to work to get sammiches to...etc.

Anyone feel me on this?

So I suppose what Im asking, has anyone just cleaned their slate, threw out the memory card and started a new "game"? How did it come about, how did you keep from falling back into old patterns? How do you do it when it seems fate plays a role to some extent in that you cant go "do anything you wish". Ill never be president, anything artistic, president, an astronaut...and I refuse to be a tool killing myself for an "owner" who gets the pie while I earn crumbs.

How do you even make cash, when youre pretty antisocial to begin with? Anything of interest to me doesnt really dictate the movement of money so.. assuming I dont get hit by an asteroid tomorrow, its pretty depressing to realize Im riding this one out, and its not going to be good, or even neutral, its going to suck. Unless I find a way.

So, given the minds that pass through this joint, has anyone pulled this off and how was your way of doing it? I dont mean "went to college, got a suit and tie job etc.. im talking.real change, which seems to limit it to artistic freedom, music, acting, chainsawing and blowtorching wooden bears at the local fall festival...anything!! But then ol'man writers block comes.through the door, or.the end product just sucks.. so what does one do when theyre trapped?

Anyone know what Im talking about? What did you do to make "fate" obsolete?