I guess I learned late in life but it only hit my recently and especially with a recent LSD trip how real life is. Picture a dramatic song, like shiva space technology. It was like the largest news I had ever received in my life. That this is real and this is happening, I am happening. Was like the movies where I held my hands in front of me and turned them back and forth. I basked in that fact that I was a sentient being. What a beautiful thing. I'm still alive, I get to feel. I get to come down, come back and remember what it's for. I am allowed and able to feel this! What a gift, and opportunity.

It's intense and fragile. Our veins, our bodies, our brains it doesn't day to day to hit me how major it is. But when it does it's a serious shock.

What do you think it is for? Your opinion.

My opinion;
it is beautiful because it is not for anything.
It is not goal oriented or meant to serve a purpose.

I see purpose and non-purpose relating, like form and no form, a yin and yang.

For me the idea of purpose and cause arises from a lack of purpose and a lack of cause, thus for me to perceive and impose purpose is facilitated by it's absence in an ultimate sense, which allows me to ascribe and interpret according to my nature.

Imagine life is a statue made of stone.
To make the beautiful statue, one must form it out of stone where all the elements for the statue are there, but they are not there also. The form of the statue arises from the lack of form of the stone. The purpose of the statue arises from the lack of purpose in the stone. Thus while the statue can have purpose, to depict or convey in this example, it is only allowed this because it arises from a neutrality, a lack of depiction.

The way I perceive mental function, language and the relationship of belief to observation implies that our sense of purpose is a biological function relating to sensory perception, in this it is an abstraction that while contextually valid does not exist before it arises. So I do not perceive purpose as existing outside of it's assignment by mind.

As to the rest:


I find this to be true but to contain something profound.

The statement I am happening has three parts. I is a label relevant to perceived self, am is also a label relevant to perceived identity, and happening is another way (for me) of saying now.

I reduce the statement to "now is" or infer that the whole is true if we take the attribution of identity "I am" in the literal sense to be "now"

So for me it is a way of stating that identity is an illusion insofar as it is not a persona, a body or another aspect, but is rather "now" which I regard as formless.
In this sense form=I and formlessness=now ergo self is non-self. This is not a negation however, for it is non-linear. Thus self and non-self are as Yin and Yang, like + and - they are polar, balancing and reciprocal forces that together form one whole.

In one sense this is why i view life as beautiful and special, because in the end what makes it important arises from it's lack of importance. What makes it serve a purpose is that it arises from a lack of purpose. What makes that we exist special is that we arise form non-existence, and return to it as well, as a wave into the ocean, which being a wave cannot perceive the ocean, only it's individuality, and in being the ocean cannot perceive the wave. This also relates to mortality to me, for I do not believe in an afterlife, or a pre-existence, and that is why I believe life to be sacred.

This is only my opinion.