Over the weekend, I tested out my new extract from Acacia, a mix of crystals and goo.
I had quite an interesting experience and wanted to share, as a way to help my integration.
so here it goes.
I had a friend over who has tried a small dose of DMT before, she enjoyed the threshold effects and wanted to go deeper so we made plans to do just that.
We first smoked a small bowl of Rue Harmalas, Mullein, and a small amount of golden Goo. to test the waters and get into a proper head space. The plan was to get A good amount of Harmalas into us, to soften and lengthen the up coming journey.
I go first, I pack my FB pipe with 20mg Goo and 10mg Crystal, pre-melt and take a few deep breaths and get into position. (my smoking technique still needs work I never get the full dose). I take my 3 hits, hold for 10-15 seconds each, lay back and enjoy the ride.
Its starts as usual for me. The folding of dimensional space, contrast colors, black and white collapsing and expanding from a central point. The twisting and vibrating with intense and undescribable shapes and patterns.
I focus intently on that focal point and try to relax and let go of any fear, it comes
forward and consumes me. Or I consume it.... we merge.
This is the point of breakthrough for me, sometimes I am not even aware that I have lost
the since of "I" until it starts to come back slowly.
What is left of "me" is floating around in a mostly black void, I try to regain my focus
and in front of me, something begins to emerge. It is coming closer, it is manifesting into my direct vision. Words wont do this justice, but I am going to try.
First it seems like ribbons, all flowing towards me from a central point, iridescent,
almost bio-luminescent over the black void. Shimmering these ribbons come closer and closer.
The more it comes into focus, the more I realize these are not ribbons, these are tentacles!
This thing is on me now, feeling all over my astral body with hundreds of its tentacles.
This entity was mechanical and organic, the kind that only exist in Hyperspace.
It didn't really have a recognizable face, but in the center, it had what seemed like sensory organs. Like insect antennae and feelers, hundreds of flashing orbs for eyes.
It was all up in my face. I could feel it probing into the deepest parts of my feelings and my soul. I felt like I was trying to do the same thing to it, but I was not getting anything from it. I did not get any emotions off of it, it seemed neutral and the only thing I picked up was that it was very curious about me.
This thing was amazing for sure, it seemed infinitely wise and ancient, but it had nothing to share with me. Maybe I was not worthy? who knows.
At this point it felt like I was with this thing for a long time, I started to become aware of a "me" again and realizing what was going on I started to get weirded out.. ha ha. specifically since this thing was consuming me, but didn't seem to want to give anything back.
I start to have awareness in my body again and actually mumble out loud
"this is really weird".
At that point I think I freaked it out. We both knew I was coming back and it slowly started
to pull back and fade a way. All I could see was shimmering ribbons waving goodbye in the distance.
I continued to mumble some nonsense when I came back, I opened my eyes a little earlier than I normally would just because I was a bit freaked. I spoke to my friend a bit about what happened, but I was a bit in shock and at a loss for words.
I have seen Ribbon/tentacles entities twice before in hyperspace, but only in passing.
Never have I had a deep and probing interaction with it like this before.
I usually go into hyperspace with some sort of intention, or after meditating on love and light or healing.
This time I have to admit I went it completely blank. This experience was not a bad one, but it was just so weird.
I am not surprised.. ha ha. I have been completely weirded out before by DMT, but this one will be stuck on my mind for a while.
I have to say, this thing looked a lot like the sentinel creature from the movie The Matrix, which trips me out even more. It felt Like I awoke somewhere I was not privy to, and this thing came to find out why.
"go back to sleep puny human"....
Maybe it was the "Flying Spaghetti monster"?
To bad I'm not into organized religion. ha ha
Also, I re-read "Opti and I", and I have to say, I found no comfort in it.
Who knows what Opti/Tentacle thing is?
Here is a Quote from ۩ from that thread.
Quote: The predator feeds on the expressed melodrama of human affairs; what has been described as “numinous energy.” It occupies a structural position within what we think of as our consciousness. The interior stage that our ideas play upon is the tip of its dracoid tongue. He is so enfolded that one is tempted to suspect that mind was invented by him as a farming strategy.
….It gets bigger the further in you go. It is tempting to think of Opti as a parasite. This overlooks the scale of the organism. He is less parasitic to us than we are, say, cows. As he exists within a matrix of probability, he is also connected to other possible reality scenarios in hyperspace. He is equally close to all symbol using minds. His ability to hitchhike on sentient awareness combined with his catbird’s seat [as it is], enfolded within the very structure of the implicate order make him equally connected to all hyperspatial coordinates. Opti is the very essence of a living transport device for sentient awareness, across even impossible void. He is the hyperdimensional portal, built into the background of consciousness.
I have to say, I am left scratching my head after this one.
My friend had her first breakthrough, She talked of being at a carnival with all kinds of mechanical toys and rides. not exactly entities, but she said that when she felt herself starting to come back that they all slowed down and seemed sad that she was leaving.
She got the message that she could come back anytime. She had a hard time describing anything in more detail. She was pleasantly surprised by her experience and had a huge smile on her face the whole time. She lingered in the experience as long as she could.
She said she did not want to come back. I was relieved, I'm always worried when blasting someone off for the first time, You never know how they will handle it.
This is my first breakthrough in about a year. I guess fear was holding me back. Now that I am on the wagon again, I hope to partake a little more often. So maybe I will have more to share very soon.
Thanks for reading.
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