Quick backstory, this past weekend me and my friends were all supposed to go on a trip away to the woods. They got very mad about me and a friend taking psych’s and changed their mind to not touching any of them. They just parroted the usual dumb stories about being stuck in a world never getting out,etc..

So me and my friend got a hotel suite instead and did mushrooms and lsd. It ended up being a bad trip for the most part but it finished with it being good at the end for 20 mins.. Next day I was happy,but some misfortunes happened that got me very sad and depressed.

Sunday comes along and I try 2cb and LSD, a lot of inner monologue within myself and I came to the conclusion that happiness wasn’t for me to have but to spread. My friend ends up calling me over to visit during the night. Sunday night comes along and my friend mentions DMT..

I’m in a heavy emotional state.

I felt like that I needed to go through. We are in the backyard, 35mg loaded up around the fire. This time no herbs are loaded just DMT. Put on INXS - Never Tear us Apart, 2 acoustic versions of the song. I toke up, take all of it down in 2 hits.

I have my eyes closed and all the orbs, more than I’ve ever seen are in my vision. The craziness got me to open up my eyes, and I felt the “life” tingles all over my body.

And calmness…very slowly the environment changed. The fire looked like it might of been menacing, but for some reason it was pushed down and calmed down. I looked at the trees,they flattened and had a crystalline pattern to them. Only nature had changed, and I told my friend I was back in the room. (This room turns into a dance room, and where I met the gatekeepers that talked to me) .

After it had changed I noticed I was in a complete breakthrough, but completely sober. I told my friend he didn’t need to keep dancing his head to calm me down. He looked confused as hell. He’s like, are you back? I’m like, I’m in the breakthrough, your in it with me. There was no need for him to do or be anything besides be himself A cop could of walked in the backyard or family or anyone else. I was completely calm and sober.

Music still sounded the same, I even told my friend to give me my phone, cause on every single DMT breakthrough, no matter how weak or strong it usually goes crazy, and it was completly normal. I then put on the next song called Dreamin by Feldberg. I was in a complete state of relaxation, no anxiousness, worries,problems. I could for the first time think clearly. It was the first breakthrough where I could explore the environment with it,I could walk,stand, run. If I was given a drawing pad I could of drawn out the entire breakthrough room we were in.

At this point I felt so much love from the DMT, I had a very strong feeling over me
that it was doing this on purpose. That it was letting me know, that we may have bad,
good, insane, magical trips, but most of all, it can also be a friend for when I need it most.

It was a good 10 minutes in, and it began to slowly fade in a very calming manner. My friend
then asked me what happened. That’s when I tried to explain and broke down crying.

He was asking all the crazy stuff I had seen or experienced, and I told him that was the beauty of it all, that there was no craziness. He was asking if it was a weak breakthrough. I said no way, I know the difference now between the weird place of not breaking through and even on weak breakthroughs my head is still in the “dmt mindset”.

What I took the breakthrough as, that the DMT was basically filling in the void left by my other friends not wanting to hang out anymore or do any psych’s. The DMT took their place, let my mind be sober so that at least I could enjoy my breakthrough with my other friend that was there, and maybe it wanted to join in on “our” world.

I went to sleep crying a bit, and I woke up today crying and took off for work. It was an intensely emotional trip not because of anything that I saw, but because it was the first time I really honestly 100% felt that the DMT was a friend and really did love me.

The first time I did psychedelics it changed the way I viewed the world and changed my life.
This time, it was the same with the DMT. This breakthrough now changes the way I look at DMT.
I am no longer anxious,nervous,scared of it. I always thought of DMT being a friendly molecule,but after last night, it wasn’t a molecule anymore.

It was a friendly loving spirit.

It will be very hard for me to talk to anyone today. I’m still teary eyed and that friendly loving I received last night is unlike anything I’ve experienced. It was unlike any other DMT connection I've had. To the point that I wonder if in the near future if I get another breakthrough like this, if I could actually talk to it.

It gave me what I was needing most..Love and Friendship.

So I just wanted to say thank you to the DMT spirits and my guy that makes it.