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A cape made of Caapi, a Volcano vaporizer and the will to improve: An experience report. Options
 
aleph 1ne
#1 Posted : 11/29/2013 9:41:32 AM
I was apprehensive about doing this for the entire day before hand. I had never felt anxiousness about dosing like this before. My plan was to take 70 grams of Caapi. 35 white and 35 yellow, in a tea I had concocted a couple days prior. 3x 3 hour boils reduced to a shot. then vaporizing 50 mg DMT after about an hour. I've familiarized myself with the vine over the last couple months, using 50 grams of it alone a couple times, and also mixing it with Chaliponga a couple times. All my experiences were subtle but beautiful and transformative. This time, i knew i had nailed the brew. I could just feel it. i also had not tried yellow Cappi yet, and was very optimistic during the brew.
Alas, the time was upon me and I was making every excuse in the books as to why it wasn't the right time.. I put some music on and relaxed for a few minutes after basically convincing myself that it was not the time. I don't know what changed my mind, but before i could even really think about it, I had downed the Caapi.

The effects of the tea came rather quickly. I felt mellow and ready for whatever the universe could throw at me. I remained still for about an hour, cued by the music i had on. I felt no nausea at all, but was very sure I was inhibited.
I fired up the volcano vaporizer, loaded some blue lotus as a bed and put my 50mg dose in. I had another 50mg dose at the ready since I'd be inhibited for about 4 hours, as I had learned from previous experiments.
No anxiety at all. In fact I was now completely enthralled with the idea of hyperspace travel.
I took 3 large hits, each held for as long as possible.. ( at least 30 seconds) After my first hit, I was surprised at what I felt.. No sudden onset, no auditory effects ( which usually just shatter me right off the bat) But a feeling of "here it comes" came over me.
the second hit had me half way between worlds, instantly.. The longer I held it, the more the hyperspace world saturated through. I was in full control of how deeply I wanted to go. I finished my bag of magic smoke and sat back.. As I did so (with eyes closed) I noticed that I could physically look around at this new environment unfolding in front of me by actually moving my head. This in not usually the case for me. Normally any movement makes my perspective become too abstract to understand..
No carrier wave, nothing, just in!
It took me a while to figure out where I had gone. It wasn't until i noticed an entity swim by me that I realized i was in a pool. At the bottom. The designs on the walls were gentle and flowing with curves resembling soft breaking waves. I could feel the current of the hyperspace water around me, though i could not see it..
Above me there was a woman doing a synchronized dance under the water. She was not human, but looked like a living manifestation of an Incan drawing of a woman, or something along those lines. Her body was not solid or even connected to itself as far as the visual aspects went. spaces existed where joints would be. But she moved as though she had a normal body. It was beautiful to watch. She slowly made her way to the top of the pool, where I could not see. I even sat up and attempted to adjust my position in hopes to get a glimpse of above the water.. It was a failure, however, and a male voice spoke, telling me to relax. As i got back into position, I saw him. He was the same as her, swimming right in front of me. He looked the same as the woman as far as.. i don't know.. Artistic style? haha.. , except i recognized him.. This was Quetzalcoatl. He was a man, but the designs that made him up were riddled with snakes. As i thought that, he began to vibrate in a powerfully convulsive manner. We made eye contact, and I was frozen. Not out of fear, but just not able to think or move. Locked. He seemed to be peering into me. Looking for something. after what i can only describe as too long.. haha.. The woman came back and told me it was ok to enter.. Slowly she, the man and the scene faded away as she gestured for me to follow her...

I came back to reality and instantly went for my container full of FB DMT.. I was just about to dump an unknown amount into the volcano when I burst out laughing.. "SLOW DOWN" - i felt like I was about to lose my virginity again!!! haha
I then remembered I had set another dose aside for this exact purpose.. Man that was close.. Who knows what would have come of me..

This time, I just put my new dose on top of the preexisting Lotus. Another 50mg + whatever residuals may be left from the first vape. ( There is always some residual DMT left over) This time the bag was much more full and the smoke was definitely thicker, so I must have cut the first one short.. This excited me. I had just been invited in by 2 very loving and powerful entities. I had their approval.

My first hit, again yielded no observable effects.
The second gave me a flash of the corner of a room, who's walls were covered in small blue squares with red circles inside. The circles were not complete circles but instead, were nearly split in 3, with blue-white dots on each of the semi circle parts. The middle, which was rectangular, attached to the right side by only a pinch and by way of the top. The left by the bottom respectively. The circles would shake almost menacingly.

The third hit was Gargantuan!! as soon as I began holding it, an entity appeared from out of the wall. He was the same design as the wall too, which also seemed menacing, but I was not fearful at all. I could feel the effects of the Cappi and felt as though I was wrapped in a blanket of love. The being then spoke, he told me to hold it a bit longer.. Just a bit more.. we're getting there... RELEASE -
As I breathed out, A light appeared in the room and I could see features of his face.. He said.. One more, you can do it.. I took my 4th and last hit and held it.. As I did, more and more detail appeared.
He coached me through holding the hit. Then after releasing it, he coached me on breathing. He said it was imperative that I breathe quickly, but deeply, in order to get the magic flowing. I trusted him very much. He was an odd fellow. his head was not round at all, but was long and more diamond shaped. He was still designed the same as the room, but I could see him clearly. His breathing class ushered in an entirely new scene.

Next i was viewing the ceiling of some fancy hall. fractal swirls of white, silver and blue were moving and culminating in the centre, directly in front of me. The ceiling dropped down into a point that looked like a spinning top. A drip fell from it and quickly unfolded into an entity that was both a man and a spider.. He had arms and legs, but also had spider legs proportionately sized.. His head was the same shape as the previous entity, and for a moment i thought maybe it was him, and this is just how he looks in this room. I asked him to coach me some more, and he quickly turned to me and said " Watch who you instil trust to around here."
This was not the same entity at all!
The environment became shrill and erie, but i was not afraidl. i feel, in retrospect that I should have been, but the effects of the Caapi had me feeling so incredibly safe/ untouchable. As he spoke to me, My mind/ vision split, and suddenly I could hear and see many aspects of myself all working both separately from each other, and at the same time, creating the complexity i call "self".. This however came with an unnerving sense of unmasking some hidden part of me.. Finally I was scared.. Just as the fear gripped me, the voice of the woman from the first trip came to me. She said, "NO, don't ignore it. you need to learn acceptance" In a stern but very loving and encouraging way. The scene faded and a new one saturated in its place.

I was now in a tunnel of clouds. Everything was bathed in a blood orange colour, too rich to describe.
Suddenly, an object appeared in the near distance in front of me. It's instantaneous appearance alone shocked me entirely. It was Massive.
It looked like a mix between a Space mothership and a chicken rotisserie!!! LOL... with 4 poles running horizontally. On each end was a circular piece of metal with a handle. There were what looked like machine teeth running along each of the poles, and they were very intricately designed. i noticed hands holding each handle, but they were not attached to a body. They looked more like gloves, actually. They would turn the object and it would move things in my mind around somehow. I could feel it working on me.. as it turned, so did my mind.
I went through a huge battle with myself over my position on various philosophical and psychological concepts. Finally, without warning, I physically said" heal me, make me better than I am." - i don't know where it came from.. I felt like it wasn't me at all..
The machine began turning in a glitchy, menacing way. Some of it's movements were too quick for me to see and others were slow and would draw me in. For this part, i was not consciously partaking. A conversation/ interview was being done between this machine and some deep higher version of myself. I was preview to only small parts of it. They seemed, at one point, to be coming to some kind of compromise.
I was thoroughly enjoying this part, as the object was absolutely the most fascinating thing I've ever seen.
Eventually, the female voice returned like a soft wind. Her message, however, was devastating.
"You have a darkness within you"
Instantly i was filled with shock, embarrassment, guilt...
From the bottom right side of my vision, crawled a black blob. It seemed to be made of pure malice. Hatred. Anger.. It was very distinct in it's shape and design, but was at the same time indistinguishable. I refused to see it as a part of myself. I shunned it. I hated it..
Then, I recognized it. This was something living inside me since I was a child. It was my feelings of abandonment and neglect. Of uselessness and suffering. I had a tuff childhood, but never really acted out. I felt like I had to carry the burden silently. To always be strong for myself and my parents who would not be strong for me. I felt compassion for the blob in front of me. I felt love and connectedness with it. I wanted to put an end to it's isolation.It's suffering.

I ACCEPTED it as a part of myself and forgave it for tormenting me all these years. I also asked it's forgiveness for ignoring it, just as I had been ignored. Slowly the mass melted away.. the core of it, which was revealed now, was a glimmering black stone. It floated towards the giant device from earlier, which was a bit further off in the distance now, and attached itself to one of the "rotisserie" poles. The machine spun a few more times before disappearing into the distance.. and as it did, I felt lighter and lighter..

I spent the next 2 hours pondering my experience and making notes. The afterglow stayed with me until I went to bed.. Which was about 4.5 hours after drinking the Caapi tea. I was in hyperspace for 20 minutes the first time, and
a bit over 40 minutes the second time.

This is now my preferred method of vaporizing DMT. If I have the option.. Caapi is a must.

On my next journey, i think I'll try an oral dose of dmt along with my tea, before vaporizing. I could definitely have handled a longer and even more intense experience. This however was the best of my DMT experiments. A perfect mix of freebase craziness and Ayahuasca healing.

Reader : Thank you so very much for your time and intrigue in my experience. i know this was pretty in depth, but I could easily write 5 times this just about the first 10 minutes!! haha..
Safe and Happy travels.
 
DreaMTripper
#2 Posted : 11/29/2013 11:04:42 AM
Great account man, well written and a very interesting smooth read sounds like an amazing healing experience Smile Hyperspacial therapy, I especially liked the bit where higher self and the object were communicating, sometimes I think the entities may be trying to show us beyond doubt that we also exist on their level simultaneously maybe our default state there is similar to that of a wind..

Maybe into Quality Experience Reports mods?
 
Bancopuma
Senior Member
#3 Posted : 11/29/2013 5:04:14 PM
Great report dude thanks for sharing, nice and detailed, sounds like an amazing experience! Caapi tea and freebase DMT has been on my mind for a while, as well as Chaliponga, and this has fueled my appetite for exploration. Cheers Smile
 
aleph 1ne
#4 Posted : 11/29/2013 5:31:08 PM
@ Bancopuma: Thanks, my friend. I hope you do try this. i found it enlightening beyond any of my previous experiences. Chaliponga was also very therapeutic. i found my visions on Chaliponga to be a bit vague, but the thoughts and feelings that came with the visions were profound and moving. I wish you luck.
 
aleph 1ne
#5 Posted : 11/29/2013 5:33:52 PM
DreaMTripper wrote:
sometimes I think the entities may be trying to show us beyond doubt that we also exist on their level simultaneously maybe our default state there is similar to that of a wind..


This is something I had not even considered. Earlier in the trip, when my mind was split, I had a similar feeling as when the conversation was happening. i just assumed that it was a similar phenomenon.. You may very well be on to something there though..
Thanks for the input!
 
 
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