I want to thank you for making the few weeks and all that are to come possible. I'm truly at a loss for words to describe how beautiful what I've been able to see because of your dedication to preserving, expanding and passing on this knowledge. And with just a foot in the door, I feel like crying at the wonder of this gift you've given me to carry forward.
The short trip reports just don't do the experiences justice, but I'm sure you all know the feeling. And I'll preface this by saying that I was scared witless before diving in, but I'm so glad I did and will. I starting writing these experiences after I'd already smoked 11 times once I realized how I might lose them eventually otherwise, so only the last two of the five that follow were written shortly after coming back.
Experience number 6 was the first strong experience. It started with the geometry as before, only more intricate, with depth and dimensions more intricate than before. My focus landed on a spot in the CEV with the most saturated colors of the rainbow. As I followed this area, I realized that it was something distinct from the rest of the field. It began floating (swimming?) forward and looked like a jellyfish, and the super saturated, rainbow colored, morphing area was in his body at his chest. He swiftly floated closer and closer until he was inches from my right cheek. It was checking me out. The experience was not frightening or emotional, just the first step into deeper waters.
Number 7 was the day after 6, first thing in the morning, packing up a bong load just after my alarm went off. I kept my eyes open longer after taking the hit and could tell it was going to be strong by the way reality de-crystalized. When I closed my eyes, I was surrounded by the same jellyfish as before, only many (10-20 maybe) rather than 1 like before. They were close and surrounding me. I was able to see the churning organic geometric interbodies better, and they were indescribably complex and moving and rich.
Number 11 was the next strong experience, and the first to make an emotional impact. I regret the time between the experience and writing it as it seems to be harder to recall than the others. This time it was like I was being shown something, like what I was seeing was coming from something with an excited energy. Interesting that the one that made an emotional impact and left me with an afterglow is the one I can’t remember except for the emotions associated with it.
12 didn’t start with the normal geometry that becomes more (or not). I felt a tremendous body buzz, and was in a white space looking at morphing machines/things on display on what looked like pedestals. The morphing and movement passed through different symbols that struck chords, but what exactly they were didn’t stay with me. There were several of the multi-dimensional displays in the space, and seemed like I could have seen the characters presenting them had I looked around, but I couldn’t take my focus off the beautiful displays.
Upon returning, I though there may be one more launch in the bowl and took one huge hit. Again, the body buzz was very heavy, and then I was gone. This time I was in a dark space, with one beautiful organic machine in front of me. It was very feminine, and had parts that flowed like water. The whole organism was moving and flowing and warm, and the beauty was almost overwhelming.
Forge a Path with Heart <3