Chat might be a good place to ask such a question. People are usually available to help, most people here are knowledgeable and intellectuals when it comes to various DMT topics. Although you won't be able to use the "full" chat, there are people who check on the Welcome Area Chat from time to time and might be able to help.
Good luck and be safe.
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