Hey nice to meet you forum. I've decided to join this forum as a step on a quest to find out who I truly am. I don't know if I will be taking part in creating DMT, seems a bit complicated. So much terminology I have no idea of and my chemistry knowledge is absolutely 0% haha. I possess a perspective that's pretty Grand you can say that I developed without using DMT and such, but now I think the second step is too actually experience my perspective. How? I don't know and don't really have a answer, but one thing I do know I'm on my way. I'm very anxious to what trip DMT will take a person with a perspective of mine. If I happen to never take DMT, then that's completely fine with me, as long as I'm developing more consciously.

I feel like writing a long short road about me and my life, so prepare.

About me: I'm 20 years old and I'm against the society we have today. I'd rather not live for it or necessarily be apart of it. At age 16 I was a into the mysteries Area 51, which then led to the video 9/11 was a lie. My rebel mindset started there and then for 2 1/2 years I was a hardcore conspiracy theorist that followed people naively. There was a phase in my 16 year old age where I was fear-mongered into being a christian. I created a youtube account (I can't think of the name for s*** Godwarrior) or some sort to promote salvation. A couple months down the line I came to realize how much the emotion fear destroys a person and I started questioning Christianity. I looked at fear from a holistic view then I started questioning religion, so pretty much I questioned everything concerning Religion and Government). I left Christianity not too long after and started developing a sense of spirituality around 17. I ran into a youtube user by the name of 5th-density and he explained to me how he underwent a OBE. I was really fascinated and wanted to somehow achieve this as well, he pointed to me videos he watched (Can't think of the series for the life of me) and shortly after watching them he achieved a OBE. I wanted to do the same and decided to watch the series, as you would guessed nothing happened for me, but I did gain something from that series, which developed me more consciously. The Illuminati, secret government, and 2012 doomsday was the phase that really controlled my way of thinking at the age of 17 to 18. I watched how it's symbology was present within all of entertainment and how demons or evil entities was controlling the music. I would listen to lyrics really closely to see if there were hidden meanings and I would watch videos to see if there were symbolic meaning behind them. Many videos I dismiss from my mind today, but Rihanna's umbrella song really sticks with me because I can't really disprove what I've come across in that video.

Somewhere in 18 I've developed more intelligently and didn't take BS. I guess I got tired of running in constant circles of finding the truth of things and started asking for links to credible sources to verify for myself if things was true or not. I wasn't into mixing half truths with lies and listening to anyone that claimed they had the answers. But I found a thread where a Illuminati insider decided to speak the members of that forum. I read through that thread and his responses on life and such really blew me away. He talked about the current condition of humanity and why it's the way it is and he explained God being the universe, I felt within myself this guy was on point. But there's things he added of christianity Yahweh being a micro God over us, which I didn't accept at all. I took his words with a grain of salt because I was aware people would mix half truths with lies. But anything God being the universe related I held on to. Some more shit happens and I now possess this new awareness where oneness with others is deeply rooted in my mind.

Fun facts:

I have holistic mindset where I can imagine myself being on the moon and having a view of earth. I can imagine it's Grand vastness in front of me with it's beauty. Then I realize how bad we spoil it with our wars and killings. People don't realize we all on this planet together as one.

I don't really pay attention to any sort of conspiracy anymore, I just know the fundamental idea that government is completely jacked up (Understatement) and some group of people higher up are throwing us into chaos.

When my mind take a universal perspective I see that humanity is a immature species of intelligent beings that will either fail in chaos due to constant conflict/war and never make it past the moon or develop successfully one day to truly understand each other that will explore the stars as one. Right now with so much chaos going on the world I'm at the cross roads when it comes to our future. It seems the world is going through turmoil with constant corruption and senseless killings, people overly prideful of their nation and can't imagine being as one to truly understand each other and explore the stars, but I can't help the thought that there hidden hands that's playing a role to make humanity development into successful beings. Maybe I'm delusional.

That's about 70% of my road to enlightenment, the other 30% I forgot.

I don't know what's next in my life, but I'm looking forward to it.

Ra, lol, Thanks for the lovely read. Welcome to the nexus.

I have some good news for you, there is no conspiracy theory here to get invlved with.

I wish you all the best here at the nexus. Feel free to interact, ask questions, contribute.

IH