This report was the last time I smoked indoors also the last time I had smoked with a friend.

We each smoked an unwieghed dose,I took 2 or 3 large hits and handed him the pipe.I was sitting on the floor with my eyes open watching the room change.The walls were changing colors
and some flower like patterns moving around on them.He said something to me but I couldnt understand him and he looked like one of those crystal entities so I just mumbled something about the walls and went to sit on the couch.


Once I was seated I stared at the wall and watched the patterns get more intense.A female entity appeared from the patterns and approached until she was very close standing and just staring at me.I tried to communicate with her but could not with words,even with telepathy the words didnt work.


She wouldnt stop staring so I stared back.She started probing me and my brain just through the visual contact.I thought
ok this isnt totally unpleasant.Then I tried to get some information from her the way she was getting it from me.I was locked out from her that way,but was able to communicate while she was doing her thing.

I could feel her going through my memories and all the things that made me "me".Then she dug in too far where I dont want anyone to go and I myself dont like to look at that part
of myself.I was scared and said "NO" like she was trying to steal the most precious thing
in the world but really it was me being afraid to open up completely to her.She gave me two
really intense stares and i submitted and let her in.Even though she was probing all the things I didnt want her to see it felt fantastic when she did it,very odd.

When she was through I tried to communicate and she just gave me the same cold stare and left.I decided open eyes was too weird and closed them and could see a small circus going on below me.I was excited as I floated down to watch the circus.

What luck I thought this should be fun.The circus was really miniature,the people were about 8 inches high and the striped tents and horses and such were of a similar proportion
to them.I sat beside them and watched awhile.There was a marching band that would go back and forth with some children's piano music.I realized it was all a big loop with a big flash at the end/begining that made me feel great.

I started to become less impressed with the circus and wondered why DMT was showing me this
childlike circus.I said I dont take dmt to watch childrens shows.I want to be enlightened.

As soon as I said that the circus was pulled far away and I could see a gold statue thing
zooming toward me.I was scared because I thought DMT was going to spank me for not liking the circus.When this thing got near,it looked like a statue of shiva with 6 arms.It was very large and impressive,I was scared to look up and face it and was wishing I was back at the circus.It looked at me and let me know that things would not be like that anymore.DMT is not a toy and my journeys would not be fun colorful circus type things anymore.I still get brief trips of things like that but they are rare these days.

It spoke and told me I had already been enlightened many times,"why do I keep returning and asking for it again".I said "I cant remember it though".It replied "you can't or you dont
want to bring it back".I asked to be shown again and I remember it starting to show me some info on the nature of the universe and reality.And again I can't remember any of it at least I remembered having the conversation and that I either cant or dont want to remember
what true enlightenment really is.