SWIM's got em. He's never used DMT before, and he has about .2 of a gram in a vial. He's trying to find his center, but his soul it quaking because it knows what is at hand.

Very normal, rational response. Only a fool wouldn't have em. Try starting with .025 or .03mgs. You seem like you've got a wealth of psychedelic experience already to draw from, but this will be something different.

Godspeed, buddy. You're in for a life changer. Just try to remember... surrender.

SWIM gets em quite often, even just smelling the stuff with no intention to launch!

but call him a fool then, because lately he's been feeling really OK and pretty relaxed
about spicing! and, interestingly, it has reduced his feeling that he should. probably
a good thing, IMHO.

don't worry, but if you are feeling really really uncomfortable I have a few tricks that
might help:

have a beer or two beforehand, if its quite difficult for you to centre and get rid of
the jitters by meditaton or whatever; or smoke a bowl of bud, sometimes this helps.

or, another one, you can try smoking a very small amount (literally, a few crumbs)
to get your head into that psychedelic headspace. usually after this your confidence
will pick up.

but mainly since its your first time, SWIM would say: the spice can be really, really
quite gentle, even when full blown hyperspace visuals are going on!

(SWIM likes those ones, alot )

I'm having a beer right now. Very calming.

For certain. Just smelling pipe residue can almost make this SWIM's knees buckle!

Just wait for your moment, VD. There's no shame in tableing your launch if the willies don't subside.

van d'lay, I *love* your sig!

wow is all I can think right now.

SWIY spiced up allready? Write a report!!!

If your not scared shitless the first time you are about to take of the spice your a lunatic. Everyone feels it everyone has to deal with it. I can tell you know it will get easier if you do it allot but the first few times will all be a high anxiety moment. Just remmebr it wont kill you just make you think you are dead

Alright

After taking some preparation, which consisted of consuming a beer, I went into my room and and sat on my bed with my back against the wall. I sat there, breathing in and out slowly, calming myself for the journey I was about to embark on. Lightbulb vaporizer in hand, I sat there and asked the DMT entities to, "Show me their world." I held up the makeshift vaporizer, and brought the lighter as far away as possible while still vaporizing the DMT so as not to burn any of it.

After the bulb had filled with a somewhat thick smoke I dragged on it. As I did so I felt my heart rate rise. It was incredibly hard to drag. As I held the smoke I started vaporizing another hit. I was feeling the effects quickly and once the bulb had filled I ejected the smoke that was in my lungs and laboriously dragged upon it again. As I held the smoke in I started vaporizing for a third time, needing to work quickly because I was being overwhelmed, I held the lighter closer to the bulb. I began to drag again, but I soon realized that in all my excitement and haste I was not using the carb. I let my thumb off the carb and cleared the bulb with ease.

I quickly set the bulb by my side because I did not want to drop it. I closed my eyes and began to get lost inside the DMT landscape. Color and patterns began to flash across my counciousness. But there was a certain familiarity here. Probably because of the yopo I had done not too long ago. As I was unable to make sense of what was flying through my brain I opened my eyes. I studied my room. At first it looked like my room, and then it took on a very alien nature.

I sat there and examined my floor. It is covered with clothes shoes and all sorts of crap since I recently moved and have no furniture. Everything on my floor became some one big puzzle. I set there and tried to figure out this puzzle, but I did not know what I wa trying to figure out. After a short while of this I came to a realization that this is not what I wanted to do. So I quickly shut off the light and with wide open eyes gazed in amazement at the colorful and wonderful geometric patterns before my eyes.

After sitting in the dark for a minute or two it went into the afterglow phase. The thing that stood out most to me was the crystal clear mental clarity that I had the whole time. Since I do not have a mg scale I eye balled it. I estimate it was a 40mg dose, but from examining the bulb it looks like there is about 10mg left in it. I'm pleased with the experience. Although the feeling that your lungs and throat are being turned inside out while your tripping is not a good feeling. The product needs a recrystal for sure.

Hope you guys enjoyed,

Peace

welcome home VD. you have a small but extremely righteous extended family now. we are all unified by an experience of indescribable oneness and power. might i humbly suggest that the next time you journey you try to keep your eyes closed for the entire breakthrough....it has been my experience while turning fellow travelers on to the spice that opening one's eyes is usually done in an attempt to "anchor" or "ground" onesself in the familiar. not that seeing this world through spice-tinted glasses ain't cool, but without any of "this" world to get in the way, "that" world is allowed to complete open to you. just a thought

...of course...when you really officially BREAK through, it won't much matter....you won't know what eyes are anymore!


LOVE AND GRATITUDE!

Definitely!!
In fact, opening your eyes to ground yourself, usually just makes things get more whacked out as you sometimes see the room your in & the "DMT-room" (or whatever) superimposed on each other. Or the normally familiar room, now looks completely foreign to your DM-Tinted eyes, which can cause one to get even more disassociated & freaked out.

Taking away as much of the "real-world" stimulus (hearing, vision, touch, etc...) before going into the Spice-Space, will allow the DMT to fill all of your senses & the experience really begins to take on that "separate reality/dimension" that everyone's always speculating about around here!!

I prefer silence, a dark room (or one candle) & laying back on my bed with a blanket within arms reach, in case I get the chills.
I even make sure to lay my arms at my side, rather than on my chest. Because I've noticed how the weight of my arms folded on top my stomach, or chest, causes me to feel held down by something and even makes it seem hard to breath.
Laying down with my arms at my side, I can feel like I'm floating above my body, weightless!

DMT can definitely make music sound very cool and make the room around you look really wild & all, but to me it seems a bit sub-par compared to what spice can do when its all by itself, if you let it!!

We all have our preferences.

WS

congrats VD..welcome!

listen to Warrensaged. The only way I have reliably seen and communicated
with the "others" is in silent darkness. I always lay a towel beside me
on the bed to set my hot machine on. I sit there, toke 3 big times and lie
back and close my eyes. It is sometimes hard to get it through to people that
dmt needs absolutely nothing else (music,lights,people) to give you a life
changer. However I will never forget my first time - I had 2 tokes and I was
hesitant to close my eyes for some reason. It was enough to give my those incredible
fractal visuals where everything looks like you are stuck inside a video game.
My dog Katie walked over to me on the couch and looked at me right in the face,
seeing and touching here face all broken up like it was maded of psychedelic
legos was pretty astonishing.

When I even think of smoking dmt I feel the adrenaline pumping.
I think its the sudden onset and intensity that make me a little bit nervous.
But when I'm in the trip I enjoy it.

I find making tones helps me relax before smoking.
Auuuummmmmm - OOmmmmmmm.

It works for me like magic, clears stuck energy and gets me flowing.