in chat today i described a trip of SWIM's who i refer to as "me" or "my" as a little joke i like to play sometimes. this happened to them over 6 months ago, but no-one could really find the words to describe it until now. so here it is:
Quote:16:17:33 ‹Czepa› 60mg smoked out of a bong with the leaf bed sandwich method
05/04/2011 16:17:45 ‹Czepa› leaf/dmt/leaf
05/04/2011 16:17:47 ‹Tizzy› yeah i know the one
05/04/2011 16:18:04 ‹Czepa› jet lighter held so that the flame isnt even touching the leaf or the dmt..
05/04/2011 16:18:28 ‹Czepa› the dmt melts and vaporizes slowly.. then as i cant take the harshness of the smoke, i push the lighter in and rip the cone.
05/04/2011 16:19:00 ‹Czepa› electricity fills my room and it all comes toward me into my body, visually.
05/04/2011 16:19:17 ‹Czepa› i close my eyes and see a multitude of difference patterns and colors
05/04/2011 16:19:30 ‹Czepa› as i meditate and breathe the colors go in, and out changing color.
05/04/2011 16:19:50 ‹Czepa› the sensation of my heavily beating heart stops..
05/04/2011 16:19:57 ‹Czepa› i cant feel the beating anymore...
05/04/2011 16:20:06 ‹Czepa› i only exist as colors going in and out.
05/04/2011 16:20:15 ‹Czepa› crazy patterns and colors, representing who I am
05/04/2011 16:20:35 ‹Czepa› then i break through this blanket of distraction and enter a tunnel of light
05/04/2011 16:20:43 ‹Czepa› very very very fast
05/04/2011 16:20:54 ‹Czepa› speed of light just rocketing through this tunnel
05/04/2011 16:20:59 ‹Czepa› then BAM
05/04/2011 16:21:16 ‹Czepa› i wake up into this cream colored completely empty room with a breakfast bar in the center
05/04/2011 16:21:26 ‹Czepa› flashing lights all around.
05/04/2011 16:21:35 ‹Czepa› 2 closed doors at the back of the room
05/04/2011 16:21:53 ‹Czepa› a door to my left which is open, an open door to my right which is about 4 steps away
05/04/2011 16:22:03 ‹Czepa› 1 entity walks in from each of the doors..
05/04/2011 16:22:39 ‹Czepa› 3 or 4 entites. (humanoid, made of patterns and light all rotating within itself) walk to my sides, link arms with me and lead me to the room on my right
05/04/2011 16:23:00 ‹Tizzy› fuuucck
05/04/2011 16:23:07 ‹Czepa› inside this room is a spiraling dark hole in the ceiling,
05/04/2011 16:23:24 ‹Czepa› and underneath this hole is "the solution machine"
05/04/2011 16:23:44 ‹Czepa› its shaking and pumping, gjkgjk gjkgjk gjkgjk
05/04/2011 16:23:57 ‹Czepa› at the end of this machine is a conveyor belt
05/04/2011 16:24:18 ‹Czepa› which the patterns this machine is pumping out, land on and go to somewhere else.
05/04/2011 16:25:03 ‹Czepa› beyond this i cannot remember. i was in such a frightened.. no not scared.. like amazed and kinda like its too much for me
05/04/2011 16:25:24 ‹Tizzy› yeah no shit, fuck
05/04/2011 16:25:31 ‹Czepa› i remember waking up in a flurry of love and just rolling around in my bed like aaaah, this is so wonderful like deeep deep euphoriq
05/04/2011 16:26:00 ‹Czepa› so everything in my room comes into focus, ive calmed down
05/04/2011 16:26:03 ‹Tizzy› yeah the feeling after coming back from an intense trip is wonderful
05/04/2011 16:26:06 ‹Czepa› im looking around my dark room
05/04/2011 16:26:17 ‹Czepa› im looking at the lights on my computers keyboard
05/04/2011 16:26:23 ‹Czepa› im standing up
05/04/2011 16:26:35 ‹Czepa› my hands felt itchy or like i dunno, funny
05/04/2011 16:26:37 ‹Czepa› so i look at them
05/04/2011 16:26:52 ‹Czepa› and i happen to be fidgeting my fingers together with both hands
05/04/2011 16:27:01 ‹Czepa› it felt like i had a rubiks cube in them
05/04/2011 16:27:29 ‹Czepa› then as i look at my hands, my fingers completely melt together.. OUT OF NOWHERE.. and i collapse backward onto my bed and have a mild trip, colors and patterns, just bliss
05/04/2011 16:27:41 ‹Czepa› dmt comes in waves.
05/04/2011 16:28:00 ‹Tizzy› thats crazy
05/04/2011 16:28:28 ‹Czepa› after every trip it feels like there is work being done on me, sometimes i feel like there is a drill in my brain and entities behind that drill, just being like relax its ok. its almost over
05/04/2011 16:28:31 ‹Czepa› just sort of distracting me
Sir Terrence McKenna: "and what is real: is you, and your friends, and your associations, your highs, your orgasms your hopes your plans your fears... and were told. no. we're unimportant, we're peripherial. get a degree, get a job, get a this, get a that. and then your a player, (but) you dont even want to play that game? (well) you want to re-claim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers: who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash thats being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world. ¿where is that at?"
"But now technology throws a curve. and the curve is that we live so long, that we figure out what a scam this is. we figure out that what your supposed to work for isn't worth having, we figure out that our politicians are buffoons, we figure out that professional scientists are reputation building gravitating weasels. we discover that all organizations are corrupted by ambition. we figure. it. out... and as you come to see that you are alienated you realise that culture is not your friend."