hello again everyone

I journeyed for the first time in a while yesterday. I usually have work or dont feel as if I'm in the right mindset when I want to vape. However, I purchased a new bong especially for use with the spice. I still feel like I'm treading the dmt waters and a big part of me really wants to "breakthrough".

The reason I put that in quotes is because I personally feel as if I haven't yet, and its all I really want to do. I'm learning that "breaking through" isnt neccessarilly what dmt is all about and that I should take every experience as it comes.

So I smoke. and it always takes me a bowl or two of misfires to get going. I really wanted to blast off and be somewhere else, but when i finally smoked correctly, the same that always happens happened. I felt like I was in a space, where there were many faint patterns, but i could see people. They came off as very African in origin, or at least thats the best way I could describe it. One thing I've noticed is most people I see look kind of African. It's interesting to me since I'm a pale russian american. I was only in this space for less than a minute before I came back down.

Another thing that happens when i see these people is i feel as if they are "scrubbing me out". This is something very common in my dmt experiences, which im grateful for because i came to dmt looking for help. However this time, i literally felt brand new. as if I had just been born. i ran around my apartment giddy and stumbling, but felt great and still do today.

I've learned that dmt gives you just what you need, to take the experience for what it is, and to be patient because my time to go deep will happen when it needs to.

Just thought I'd share with everyone!