I just had my first real breakthrough literally 15 minutes ago and am overjoyed!
the experience was beautiful to say the least,
reality was sucked from a dark room into a nearby computer monitor,
when I closed my eyes I saw the fabric of reality fall away like the pins in one of those toys that you stick your hand in and it makes a metal pin imprint of your hand (don't know what the hell those are called) and then the pin points of the pins began swirling into beautiful patterns.
I felt the definite presence of another entity.
This entity was familiar to me.
This entity was .....everything.
It was love but in a very strange way, like family, but closer, like the love for myself, but more concrete.
It was the universe hugging me and showing me the genes and DNA molecules of life.
It was very mechanical yet smooth and organic feeling.
I saw patterns that looked ancient that it seemed me to want to look at.
Then the pins began swirling around and reassembling themselves into the indent of reality.
As most of you know words cannot describe the experience. But I really wanted to share
'Little spider weaves a wispy web, stumblin' through the woods it catches to my head. She crawls behind my ear and whispers secrets. Dragonfly whiz by and sings now teach it.'