This is a text posted on reddit about a week ago. I found it posted on the Spirit Molecule Facebook page and thought it was a good read and that people would appreciate it here in the Nexus. I Don't know the guy who wrote it but i can strongly relate to it!

What's interesting to me is the fact of how strongly the DMT-experience can affect ones awareness and completely change the way you see the world. Here's the text:

http://www.reddit.com/r/...d_me_i_cant_change_back/

First post! Yay! Any thoughts?

Interesting read actually!

i can realte to that report quite alot, i remeber after the 1st time i went into hyerspace i was soo happy to be alive, and for some reason i stil get this after breakthruoghs i absolutely adore trees, shrubs and bush's, esically running my hands throw tree leaves, ect

i actually plan to have mini breakthruogh in apple tree next summer

Ahh yes, I read this from the Facebook page as well. The guy must be well shocked at how much it got around! It's also quite a scope at how large this community now is and I believe it's growing fast. I had my first breakthrough today and indeed I can see what all the fuss is about, but my psychedelic transformation came from other experiences although I can understand how shocking it must be coming from DMT. Spiritual emergencies are easily imagined with such a short duration. The thing is, modern people tend to mask their problems and insights by keeping a false smile on their face with an anxious laugh, age of anxiety, the anxious laugh is now taken to be quite a normal laugh. Psychedelics make you say, no, wait a minute, this is what's going on! Still quite ecstatic from my trip, the psychedelic revolution is coming from the trees!

It's interesting that the concept of change in this day and age is such a big part of modern society. But it really goes beyond the slogans of the American elections. People start to both seek and find change in themselves. Exploring of consciousness through meditation or the use of psychoactive drugs to find awareness of our relationship to nature and its resources, how we should care for others less fortunate or social injustice on a global scale. This is one example of such personal change, but it is starting to become a movement.

Here's an upcoming documentary on the subject as an alternative to apocalyptic doom and gloom films about 2012 (don't know if it's been posted here on the Nexus before):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UARnUbpoUHw

What is sad in this case is that he feels grief, as i see it, because of the feelings of separation from his family and friends. He should try to talk to them about these now to him important questions and try to understand what's important to them as well. And focus on a positive outcome of this new found awareness.

When one undergoes a traumatic experience they suffer a paradigm shift in their perspective. It is essentially post traumatic stress disorder. DMT is not for everyone, it is a powerful and intense experience that not many can handle. The issue is that many do not realize how unprepared to deal with the experience they are until they have undergone it. Others have no problem dealing with the experience while it is powerful to them as well they have the innate ability to cope with it on a regular basis. The cold hard fact is not a single person who has taken DMT for the first time was ready. I do not think anyone can be prepared. Some can just deal with the aftermath better.

I underwent a seriously negative experience many years ago. To speak truth, the only way I could get though each day afterwards was to be so stoned that my mind was simply not capable of thinking of anything in a coherent manner. It took nearly a year before I could come back to normal. It was nearly 7 years before I returned to the DMT community. Time can change perspective and allow a experience to be integrated. The ego death that the people here have experienced from time to time can break down even the strongest willed individual. This is not a game it is not for fun. If you do not see that then you will like many others learn a lesson the hard way.

Yama, Did you write that?

I think that is one of the very best posts I've ever seen in here (even though it didn't originate here). I can relate to just about everything this guy is saying, quite honestly - and I wouldn't necessarily say at all that it sounds to me like PTSD.

To me, it appears as though he's been changed in the very best kind of ways; he's woken up - realized that he's been asleep in the matrix and suddenly sees it for what it is. I can relate to this. I think it's a logical and very appropriate response to an experience of this magnitude. DMT is that astounding. It changes simply everything.

This is an amazing little piece of writing.

I relate to this persons struggle...it's tough getting your whole world shattered and put back together again.

but SO worth it.

DMT casts a searing light on ones perception-this can blind as well as illuminate.

The guy is having a struggle integrating;not that surprising considering his limited and tame experiences of these realms before he blitzed the pipe.

I think what you have experienced is a common story for many people "waking up". For me it was the other way round:

I felt miserable living in this world. Contact with the source sure shocked me, but in a good way. It was more relieving than anything. It assured me that there is a place where all this crap of the world doesn't exist, where we humans are really home.

Last year I discovered DMT and used a lot.
I remember that plesure DMT gived to me, when I found myself in that dimension where time doesnt exist and I did not care about body and anything...
And I ever felt: "here is where I belong"... And sometimes I remember this and I feel like: "I dont belong here, I know some other place where I feel loved".

I have pretty much come to the same conclusion (but from psilocybin). But how eloquently put!

I'll never forget the knowledge I gleaned from successive trips. One of the most practical things I realized was how much I depended on the water from my tap to quench my thirst. And suddenly, I thought of those billions of people without ready access to potable water. I wept for them and for myself - for the injustice my brethren and I have caused. I have now made it my goal to help as many of these people as possible. Once I can afford a well-drilling truck, I'll begin to use it.

Hm, interesting read.
I don't know if I feel the same, but sure, I'm not the person I once were.