Hello,
i would like to share this crazy intimate DMT experience, as i hope the long lasting glow i received will rub off onto others (haha just wait).
It was your typical Tuesday Late night, around 11pm. I wanted to explore the hyperspace dimension again, the last time i visited i met teasing entities that seemed to poke and prod me, and whenever they did an orgasmic tingle would roll through my body. Enough of that. I felt like i was barley scratching the surface.
I don't know why i did what i did, but i gave a good friend of mine a call, and asked him if he would maybe like "to launch ourselves together and meet up in hyperspace". This did not happen. Something weirder and better happened, that i can not describe with ordinary language. either way, he agreed, i loaded my smoking devices, a my pillow and my "space blanket" into the car and drove over to his place.
When i got there i swear i could see morphing patterns in the hallways walking up the stairs. I get similar pre-experience visuals on occasions, where i see just a slight shimmer of what waits for me around the corner.
I was in a good mindset, with no work or other things to take care off for the next little while, so i felt like i had nothing to slow down my exploration. We also had a sizable pile of the spice both of us extracted the days before, so this was the first time we would get to taste the fruits of our work together. Neither earthly concerns nor shortage of spice shall stand in the way.
Around 11:30 or so we both started doing our little rituals that we do before leaving this plane of existence. I fluffed up my pillow, examined my blanket, and probed my mind. When i say i am probing my mind then i throw things at my mind, and judge the response i get. Based on that, i can establish weather there is something "in the way" that is going to sneak up on me later. we got our smoking utensils ready, and laid down on a king sized bed next to each other. each one of us measured out 50mg of pure white spice, and placed a tiny spec of bright yellow-orange Jungle on top.
One last look at each other, and we both took our dosage in two quick hits. I remember looking over at him, and in his face i saw exactly what i was feeling too. Sinking, disolving, it must have been 10 seconds since the last hit. Usually, the room i am in seems to dissolve and gives way to the hyperspace. This time, i could feel an enormous energy trembling all around me, but my mind very much stayed in the same room. It wasn't until i looked over at my buddy, about 30 seconds or so in, that i felt him reach out towards me. our hands met somewhere in the middle of the bed, and this was when i finally fell through the trap door.
I landed in a place that had resemblance of a lush garden. In the distance, i could see a beautiful, marvelous tree so fascinating and intricate that i almost stopped just to marvel at it. The tree however, came closer and engulfed me with it's branches. I did not see my friend in hyperspace. I could FEEL HIM. This was when the "tree" started to attack me. It whipped and lashed at me, but i patiently held still and let it do it's thing. I knew all about entities that performed healing procedures on you. I could feel a part of me die. It was not consciousness, it was my male dominant ego that was destroyed. I had so many moments of sexual insecurities come at me at this point, and every time one came up, the tree would rip it out of me. After what seemed like forever, the tree released it's grasps on me, and it started to dawn upon me. I felt LOVE for my friend. A clear, crisp, honest, unadulterated LOVE. I have never felt this feeling before, usually my male ego kicks in and dismisses any feelings of LOVE towards another male as "gay homosexual stuff", but like i said, the tree eliminated this part of me. Don't get me wrong, the love wasn't of sexual nature. Yes, it was. No it wasn't. I had the feeling it would have not mattered either way, and it was the most liberating feeling i have experienced in a while. But i could LOVE without prejudice towards a gender, and not feel the slightest blimp of embarrassment.
Then, revelations after revelations happened. I realized i was just the same than he was, and the other way around. My body, his body, my mind, his mind, all are made from the same fundamental parts that give rise to our consciousness, that allow us to experience this. We didn't have to experience this as two separate entities anymore, with the uniting power of LOVE we were able to experience this as one. I picked up on the feelings of love radiating from him, and he picked up on mine. Together, a third wave emerged where our love intersected, carrying us to an even higher plane.
I opened my eyes. a split second after i open mine he opens his. about 6 minutes in. i realized we were holding hands. yet, i didn't feel like i had to let go due to some sexual insecurities. I WANTED to hold his hand, as it seemed to radiate an everlasting feeling of love.
Closed our eyes yet again. It came to me, that by sharing love freely, independent of gender or sexual orientation, one could achieve a higher state of bliss. Yes indeed. I observed the concept of "how gay is that", and all i could see were misguided feelings, intense hatred and confusion. My mind could not conceive how someone could employ negative feelings towards another person radiating out love. I think this is where i lost my homophobia.
Let me emphasize that when i talk about love i am not talking about sexual acts. It has nothing to do with this whatsoever. this was about feelings and emotions. I understood that sexual pleasures were such an earthly virtue, i almost felt it clouded most peoples judgment. Sex was not appealing. Radiating out this love and receiving it back was much, much, much better and intimate than any sex could ever be, and it felt so right. This was truly the one way these emotions had to be shared.
After about 15 minutes i opened my eyes and sat up, with a deep feeling of accomplishment. My friend opened his eyes a minute or so later, and the fist thing that came out of his mouth was "I LOVE YOU" to which i answered "i love you too" and i tackled him down for one final hug before this experience would fade away. I was overwhelmed, tears of joy coming from my eyes. It felt like i understood the essence of love, and witnessed it's power.
We sat and talked about this experience, and it turned out he really experienced something really similar to what i experienced. We talked about the sending and receiving of love, about homophobia and the judgment towards it. We really think this experience created a kind of bond between us, almost like the stuff that bonds two brothers together. How come brothers are allowed to feel love towards each other, but two strangers are not? Well, let me tell you, i now understand that love knows no genders. It can be shared freely between all beings capable of receiving it. It's just that most people have a very clouded judgment towards receiving love from someone of the same sex, and therefore, live a live free of love. Once you overcome this, you can make the human experience that much more rewarding.
DMT is such a wonderful molecule. It tore down my prejudice, and shows me ways of being a person with more love.
I also came to realize that any other guy would never accept the "love" going out from me, because i am a guy, and he is a guy. In his mind, the barriers are still very much in place, whereas in my mind, love knows no boundaries, and all of us are longing for some love, yet, we are right here to share it
