So I have tripped a lot, hurt a lot, thought a lot, and am really in sync with my conscience/god/etc. At this point I have entertained the idea of ascension quite a bit as there are many hints from mankind that there seems to be a way to poke your head out of this, or find a way out of this box. I was thinking that maybe I would accomplish this removing ALL fear from my life- a jesus-like path. I don't know.

I was watching clash of the titans last night (the new one) and it was the straw on the camel's back. I am perseus, i am a demigod, etc. and i need to figure this out.

I don't know what it is, and I think still that it is not the same as death. I'm sure some of you have thought about this too.


This is the first time EVER I've turned inward and not found the answer. That means either it can't be done, it can't be figured out this way, or I just have to keep trying (I still think it is the latter!!)

We'll just have to learn to live with the idea that there is no definitive answer. DMT offers many answers but every answer generates 10 more questions...

PS [edit] that's why I love DMT so much!