Welcome to the forum, Sean.
You've had a lot to deal with at a young age. You write like an old soul at 18, with thoughtful insight. Addiction is a tough thing to watch destroy a person you love. I'm sorry you went though that.
I'm glad you shared your story, and I'm glad you're here. Everyone here is searching for something, and I hope you find what you're looking for.
I look forward to reading your experiences.
"You are what you seek" - Remi
Favorite trip tunes: Billie Eilish - No time to die | Hillsong United - Oceans | The Irrepressibles - In this shirt | Rhianne Music (YouTube Channel) - Somewhere only we know | Jessica Mazin - Never let me down again | Aquilo - Human | Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek