Ive been using DMT pretty heavily since my first extraction about 4 months ago. Typically daily, sometimes multiple times a day. Bordering on, perhaps crossing over into overuse, but not abuse.

Over the last 4 months my trips have changed dramatically. Initially they were very clear. There wasnt much going on, making it very easy to pay attention. I encountered a number of different aliens or beings. These trips were incredible and often euphoric.

Over the past 2-3 months almost all of the clarity has gone. There is so much going on, things are moving so fast. The experiences are still unique and interesting, but they have become very hard to follow.

Last night however, changed everything I thought i knew about the spirit molecule. It was my third trip of the evening, the first two were similar to the trips that i have been experiencing. I loaded a 70mg dose into my VG and put my lighter to it.

It really had little to do with what i saw, but the sense that i experienced and what i felt. Ive heard people talk about death and near death experiences, and while this wasnt that, i can see how something like this could be interpreted that way. This awe inspiring feeling swept over me. I was being told, not literally, that I was ready, what for i dont know. I wasnt sure I would ever come back, I felt like i was going to move on to another plane of existence. I came down after about 15 minutes and was completely speechless.

hmm......

it will be interesting to see what "random thoughts" pop into your head over the next few days....

The following few days were indeed interesting. I was overwhelmingly filled with a feeling that I would be leaving the planet. That it had been decided that I was ready and would be moving on. I had extraordinarily intense dreams the next couple of nights, not much that I remember, but I was waking in a sweat.

I wondered what would happen if I left. Would my family know I was gone? Would this reality continue as if I never existed, or is this my reality and it will end when I move on? Obviously im still here, but im not completely convinced that "they" just didnt change their mind.