We've Moved! Visit our NEW FORUM to join the latest discussions. This is an archive of our previous conversations...

You can find the login page for the old forum here.
CHATPRIVACYDONATELOGINREGISTER
DMT-Nexus
FAQWIKIHEALTH & SAFETYARTATTITUDEACTIVE TOPICS
A Divine Experince ( IBOGA FLOOD ) Options
 
Empath
#1 Posted : 3/10/2017 1:21:06 PM
Before I start I just want to share some personal issues, that I had PTSD and personal matters since I was a kid.

by the age of 22 I started to smoke hash mixed with opiate without any knowledge of the opiate..

furthermore that opened doors to other harmful substances from ciggirates, psychotic pills! to megadone, Xanax, cocaine, mda, mdma, fake xtc pills and much much more.

we used to cocktail lots of things and it just made me worse. Thank god I didn’t reach heroine nor crystals! That been said ive ended with a very missed up brain chemistry!
I tried to quit and I did but it was too late for me as my imaginations completely disappeared I can no longer dream I became insomniac and severely depressed.

My vision became foggy, I just felt a veil been placed between my heart and my mind! I felt overwhelmed by desperation because I couldn’t have a proper thoughts and wasting most of my time trying to put down proper thoughts as I used to be before, plus time was running from me I couldn’t feel time at all everything passes so quickly!.

I’ve been in this agony for whole 8 years! It felt like forever! I was severely lost in this emotionless void where anger , aggression, anxiety depression, an endless physical and mental torture.

Then I got introduced to LSD, psilocybin, amphetamines etc that didn’t work too! It just made me far worse than I was, plus I had more ptsd events with lucy with the wrong people! So in depth of desperation with endless loops of hating every breath of my life! I have decided to always ask god for help and guidance in achieving truth and state of tranquility from my agony.

And guess what?! God made the universe conspire to guide me to iboga! Although my faith was
weak and as a Muslim I couldn’t even feel connected while praying or whatsoever!
At first I was leaning towards ayahuasca but when I reached the island they said there is only iboga at the moment.

I didn’t even know by that time what it was! So I surrendered my well to god and decided to take the full flood leap of faith ! ( I don’t even remember the dosage but they were 8 capsules)
So I toke them at once, During the trip I was drinking fresh juice although they told me not to!

Furthermore the people who’s supposed to heal me with this were so unexperienced, and it was obvious that they just wanted to get the cash out of me without giving me any tips or any insight on what I should be expecting! Among other issues too that I would not prefer to talk about!

The leader who is supposed to mix my dose has a short memory issue which put me off The ease mode! The only thing they said is that I should be off any intoxications for a whole month, And I should shift to fruit base diet during this month. Plus they asked me to fast 8 hours before I undergo the experience.

I Forgot to note that I had H pylori bug in my stomach, And that caused me to have a very bad stomach ulcer so even with a whole month of anti bios it didn't work. So the doctor advised me to have another jar of antibio for another month!

which I couldn’t bare another month of agony! so this was another reason for me to undergo the full flood. However im not supposed to take iboga if I have ulcers but they told me its ok! And obviously you know why!

So the promised day begun! and I was laying in my bed in this amazing tropical island setting.
I popped anti nausea pill followed by the 8 capsules TA and HCL mix. 25 mins passed and I felt as if every inch on my skin was breathing! It was more of a mild vibrating sensations!

I was offered blindfolds and wax ear plugs cuz we started in the early morning.. so after the vibration sensations I heard this alien voice trying to adjust There telepathic frequencies to mine you know like when u try to find a radio frequency with statics sound.

I closed my eyes and I saw 3 grey aliens inside of space ship directly talking to me and they were trying to calm me down they said they will guide me bla bla but I was feeling there negative vibes.

Even the way they were speaking was so unsettling as if they were plotting something at that moment I had an idea what if this was a test and im supposed to pass it coming from a muslim background we believe in jinns the shapeshifting invisible ones they are satan progeny lots of them are bad but there are good ones too!

in either way we are not suppose to contact such as entities and we believe by reciting certain verses of the quran ( god revelation ) certain verses to make the bad jinns flees!

so I recited these verses and they vanished in blink of an eye ! And there negative vibes vanished with them ! So I stopped reciting ..after 10 min they became hostile and was chasing my out of body soul and once I finishes reciting again they vanish!

So I opened my eyes which I can do anytime when I want to exist the astral world and whenever I close my eyes im in that world! In other words I was fully conscious of everything. However I didn’t even reach half the experience which lasted 30 hours plus in other words that was just a starter!

I closed my eyes again and behold I see this weird square with weird waves of light and I was able to zoom in with my minds eye and boom I could see the room while my eyes closed ! I could see the busy babysitter! My hands and everything I was so happy and thinking this is so cool!

But wait its not just that I was able to float out of my body I could literally go through anything so I decided to go in the walls and the wooden furniture I was able to see the tiny fabric/molecules/atoms that forms EVERYTHING!

So I decided to see my self I was like an avatar for some reason so I decided to go inside my third eye and maaaan that was amazing the pineal gland was like ball of light that emits lights and I could even move the light in any direction it was amazing!

So I decided to zoom out of earth ! And I saw our planet but soon I stopped! I had limited access to further places and there was these weird shaped things 5 or 6 of them like robots? with red dot inside of them my guts told me they are another people who is astral projecting perhaps or maybe something I couldn’t understand!

And then I decided to come back to my body and lets get to business .. before I start my trip I wrote down the things I wanted to change or to know. So I was going step by step .. I toke out the paper barely reading the first sentience ( delete past fears and traumas) .. and every time I read one of my tasks I see numbers of lights downloads from top of me directly to my brain/heart !

I saw myself sitting in a chair with huge screen In front of me and I vividly remember every details I was using my left eye as a mouse pad ! Shifting through pictures and squeezing my eye to deletes! And all the frames were presented as negative bad experiences from the past and there were at least thousands frames!

I got tired after few scrolling so I decided to delete them all ! I said delete all and woosh! Everything was deleted and I felt much lighter ! But then my heart was almost exploding from heavy palpations as if its going to jump out of my chest! That stayed the whole trip ! Was so annoyed at times.

I felt lonely and scared most of the time however i was happy abit from this mystical experience !
Then I decided to ask why are we here and what is our purpose ! It showed me a screen with male and female figure with DNA symbol and other stuff which I didn’t completely understand and I looked up and there was some writings in the stars it said in arabic We did not create anything aimlessly !

I was like wooohhh! Then it showed me how everything was created to complement everything else and how everything is submitting to the well and law of the creator! Also how when we speak we understand these vibrations from our lips to our ears .. but with the creator he says be and it becomes a vibrational spiral creation !

It was sooo deep its really hard to put everything into words .. it also showed me multitudes of people engaging in a fierce war! there were a line between them as if these multitudes were halved into 2 groups the ones on the left side were emitting fire and the ones on the right side emitting light!

Then I saw strings came out of them with each string represented our modern day war from psychologically, spiritual and physical ongoing war through food water tv phones computers and much more that I cant remember.

I was very convinced and it literally shut me up for any similar questions and doubts I had in my mind.

Forgot to to mention that I was in sever pain from my ulcers and from my crazy heart palpitations I was getting paranoid at a time thinking that my heart was about to explode. Then I decided to heal my body!

This was so different as I felt something really heavy sealing my legs to the bed as if it didn’t want me to move because I was constantly turning on my sides from the pain. I felt this vibrational snake/worm? entering my body from bottom and swirling upward it was everywhere trying to detect a disease or a defect and when it does it focus on it and vibrates like crazy on the defect for a minute and a pop sound comes out!

Then it searches again for another defect until it reached my heart and it opened 4 arteries and man I felt amazing afterward the heart pressure pounding disappeared and I felt at complete ease ! New born like!
It moved to my ulcer and it just went full throttle on it and it was so painful the baby sitter advised me to pop valium to end the trip ! But I was persisting! I saw shamanic figure blue and violet while my eyes open floating near my face it was weird! Cuz I didn’t feel negative vibrations from them like how I felt with the greys!

The vibrational snake finished its thing from bottom till top of my head then I closed my eyes while reciting few words from quran and man I had the best experience ever !

I saw my self as a soul of light curling up in speed of light in space and my whole soul entered this huuuuge sphere of light and I felt craaaaaaaaazzzzy amount of loooooove it was the ultimate XTC the ultimate joy blissful unity love!

Words cannot explain how my serotonins were splashing in my brain! Then a nebula like figure appeared i really didn’t know what it is but it appeared while I was under this eminence love state it had a red dot in middle of it and it started to bounce!

Furthermore I heard biwiti tribal song that I heard before as a if it tells me u got through u fulfilled the test !Long story short I had a major breakthrough with this the next day woke up and my bed was filled with sweat!

I went to the toilet and had white stool ! and I felt so weak and disconnected but after days I felt amaaaaazing everything I wanted happened to me even more !

Words cant describe the state which I was in it was a major afterglow for a month! When I move my hand the traces just freeze I could see the wind urgh its out of this world what an experience! No insomnia I my vivid imaginations and dreams is back! I can see clearly now ! I can breath easily ! I used to have shaky hand and all gone!

My mind and body litrally healed itself in all aspects! I started to eat healthy again food tastes amazing eso fruits and veg!

I became closer to the creator and I know im in a mission to spread hes gift to us hes revelation and one of hes amazing cures iboga! I just feel alive again! After long depressing life! I can see how lovely life is in nature and everything!

everything feels amazing I feel blissed! no more depression no more pain! I can feel time got slower and my thoughts is in tranquil state! 2 years have passed and ive never felt better .. learned and still learning ..i have a strong memory now! I just feel smarter! guidance through dreams and visions is happening to me!

This was so unexpected to me like god and religion would be involved in everything! Overwhelming, power beauty, joy, ultimate liberation, freedom, rebirth, born again, forgiven, wiped clean, deep wisdom and knowledge downloaded directly , ultimate healing, we are all one in sight of god but not equal in deeds! It felt so real that made this life looks fake!

I have a feeling that im protected all time! I even have angels? waking me up for morning prayer sometimes in dreams and sometimes they ask me to wake up gently or they make a sound in the room ! I know it sounds out of this world but I feel so grateful to be chosen to be awake after long sleep!

Always Remember there are no such a thing as accidents or luck if there are its up to us to look at them as something else ! Guidance are everywhere ! Know god to set you on your straight path.

I would like to share few verses of the quran which relates to my experience:

So have they not #traveled through the earth and have #hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, it is not eyes that are blinded, but blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts.

We will show them our signs in the horizons and within themselves until it becomes clear to them that it is the truth.but is it not sufficient concerning your lord that he is over all things a witness.

Is he whose breast God has opened to submission, and becomes guided, so that he follows a light from his Lord …?, like he whose heart He has sealed [with disbelief]? — this [understanding of the ellipsis] is indicated by [what follows]. So woe — an expression indicating ‘chastisement’ — to those whose hearts have been hardened against the remembrance of God ( allah ), that is, [hardened] against the acceptance of the Qur’ān. Such are in manifest error..

It is Allah that takes the souls (of men) at death; and those that die not (He takes) during their sleep: those on whom He has passed the decree of death, He keeps back (from returning to life), but the rest He sends (to their bodies) for a term appointed verily in this are Signs for those who reflect.

There is also a long one basically describes people of heaven will be the ones who handed there books of deed in there right hand and people of fire which will be handed there book on there left hand just how I saw in my iboga trip !

Excuse my English as its not my mother language.

May peace and blessings and guidance of god light be upon you all!

Ali
"There are no accidents/luck, And if there are it's up to us to look at them as something else.

"So have they not #traveled through the earth and have hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, It is not eyes that are blinded, But blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts."{Qur'an}

IG account@Empath___
 
Sakkadelic
#2 Posted : 3/10/2017 7:33:57 PM
Hello empath
Beautiful report! Thanks for sharing
I'm happy you got healed and found "your way"
I'm a Muslim too Big grin though i'm not anything really not even a sufi or a Buddhist..
I would love to grow and try iboga one day
"Is this the end of our adventure? Nothing has an end. We came in search of the secret of immortality, to be like gods, and here we are... mortals, more human than ever. If we have not obtained immortality, at least we have obtained reality. We began in a fairytale and we came to life! But is this life reality? We are images, dreams, photographs. We must not stay here! Prisoners! We shall break the illusion. This is Maya. Goodbye to the holy mountain. Real life awaits us." ~ Alejandro Jodorowsky
 
AcidShard
#3 Posted : 3/17/2017 5:01:38 AM
Hi Empath,

Wow!
That was an amazing trip report! That's so great that you're doing so much better after that.
I really enjoyed reading it and you described it so vividly, I didn't think people remembered that much of the experience.

I have been thinking about Ibogaine recently and would like to "reset" my brain chemistry as well, but hard to find the
money and time to pursue a flood dose treatment. I still have much research to do before that as well.
It's always good to hear stories of people positively changing their lives through these amazing compounds.

To me it seems like a flood dose of Ibogaine is like a super long dmt breakthrough,
but more personal and focused on the healing and repairing of our physical self.

Our brain and body can be repaired, and a lifetime of bad experiences
or self-inflicted brain chemistry changes undone in a couple of days,
all thanks to the plants in our backyard that we still know nothing about.
Modern medicine has got nothing on Mother Nature!

Again, great job on the writing, I enjoyed it thoroughly!
Take care,
AcidShard
 
Aum_Shanti
#4 Posted : 3/17/2017 7:55:45 AM
That sounds really incredible. Wish you all the best for your further journey.

I also thought about an Iboga flood, as I heard recently it helped others with the same serious health conditions, that I have.
But nowadays it seems it is basically impossible to get it online. Known vendors shut down or only sell crap anymore (whole root or too young Iboga). Probably because due to the unsustainable overharvesting that happened the years before, when Iboga became more popular...(really sad story)

The only option nowadays seems to go with treatment centers but they are very expensive...
I claim not that this is the truth. As this is just what got manifested into my mind at the current position in time on this physical plane. So please feel not offended by anything I say.
 
Empath
#5 Posted : 3/17/2017 8:37:31 PM
AcidShard wrote:
Hi Empath,

Wow!
That was an amazing trip report! That's so great that you're doing so much better after that.
I really enjoyed reading it and you described it so vividly, I didn't think people remembered that much of the experience.

I have been thinking about Ibogaine recently and would like to "reset" my brain chemistry as well, but hard to find the
money and time to pursue a flood dose treatment. I still have much research to do before that as well.
It's always good to hear stories of people positively changing their lives through these amazing compounds.

To me it seems like a flood dose of Ibogaine is like a super long dmt breakthrough,
but more personal and focused on the healing and repairing of our physical self.

Our brain and body can be repaired, and a lifetime of bad experiences
or self-inflicted brain chemistry changes undone in a couple of days,
all thanks to the plants in our backyard that we still know nothing about.
Modern medicine has got nothing on Mother Nature!

Again, great job on the writing, I enjoyed it thoroughly!
Take care,
AcidShard


thank you so much brother for your reply!

honestly i dont think dmt is even close to the iboga/ayahuasca experince .. i didn't try dmt but from the reports that i have been reading there is no major breakthrough for full aspects of change/body healing etc. i could be wrong tho but that what i really think.
and i dont think that i will even try dmt because ive got what i wanted and more ... its time for me to be in complete submission to the almighty after this Smile

if you want it so badly TRUST ME ON THIS! just continuously pray from your heart to god and he will makes it happen for you if he sees that u need it tho.

peace.
"There are no accidents/luck, And if there are it's up to us to look at them as something else.

"So have they not #traveled through the earth and have hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, It is not eyes that are blinded, But blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts."{Qur'an}

IG account@Empath___
 
Empath
#6 Posted : 3/17/2017 8:42:10 PM
Aum_Shanti wrote:
That sounds really incredible. Wish you all the best for your further journey.

I also thought about an Iboga flood, as I heard recently it helped others with the same serious health conditions, that I have.
But nowadays it seems it is basically impossible to get it online. Known vendors shut down or only sell crap anymore (whole root or too young Iboga). Probably because due to the unsustainable overharvesting that happened the years before, when Iboga became more popular...(really sad story)

The only option nowadays seems to go with treatment centers but they are very expensive...


thank you brother !

Trust me on this if god welling by asking god to aid you in your condition he will allow it through iboga or something else !
i know its so sad regarding the over harvesting issue! man greed has no limits !
yeah treatment centers is very expensive but i believe its much safer than doing iboga flood by your own . and trust me it worth every penny to live afull life !

all the best brother
peace
"There are no accidents/luck, And if there are it's up to us to look at them as something else.

"So have they not #traveled through the earth and have hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, It is not eyes that are blinded, But blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts."{Qur'an}

IG account@Empath___
 
skoobysnax
#7 Posted : 3/18/2017 4:23:36 AM
Welcome Empath. I like you already! I am not Muslim but many of my friends are. The best thing about your report is the intentions you set. Very focused and loving toward yourself and healing your body and soul. God always loves us I believe, it is the self love that comes hardest. Once on a DMT journey I became surrounded by dark entities, the room turned blood red and I called on Jesus to illuminate the space and the entities fled. Jesus was surrounded by a circle of spinning winglike things and inside there was a circle of people he was laying his hands on them emanating light.

That said I was not really raised in religion. The connection was more through culture but there he was. Odd. I am curious about his connection in the Qur’ān. Most so called Christians get mad when I mention it when they are being ignorant. Maybe sometime we can chat Cool

I hope there are those exploring a sustainable way to grow and harvest Iboga. I know one person in real life that it helped a lot. I hope you stay true to the path you are now on brother.
Marijuana, LSD, psilocybin, and DMT they all changed the way I see
But love's the only thing that ever saved my life - Sturgill Simpson "Turtles all the Way Down"

Why am I here?
 
Empath
#8 Posted : 3/18/2017 3:29:29 PM
skoobysnax wrote:
Welcome Empath. I like you already! I am not Muslim but many of my friends are. The best thing about your report is the intentions you set. Very focused and loving toward yourself and healing your body and soul. God always loves us I believe, it is the self love that comes hardest. Once on a DMT journey I became surrounded by dark entities, the room turned blood red and I called on Jesus to illuminate the space and the entities fled. Jesus was surrounded by a circle of spinning winglike things and inside there was a circle of people he was laying his hands on them emanating light.

That said I was not really raised in religion. The connection was more through culture but there he was. Odd. I am curious about his connection in the Qur’ān. Most so called Christians get mad when I mention it when they are being ignorant. Maybe sometime we can chat Cool

I hope there are those exploring a sustainable way to grow and harvest Iboga. I know one person in real life that it helped a lot. I hope you stay true to the path you are now on brother.

Thank you so much brother for your kind reply and sharing your wonderful experince!
Yes we believe all messengers of god was sent for our guidance and if im going to explain/share the connection of jesus in tbe quran im going to end up preaching here hehe. So pm me which app do u use so we can chat 🖐🖐
"There are no accidents/luck, And if there are it's up to us to look at them as something else.

"So have they not #traveled through the earth and have hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, It is not eyes that are blinded, But blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts."{Qur'an}

IG account@Empath___
 
skoobysnax
#9 Posted : 3/20/2017 4:59:11 AM
Smile
Empath wrote:
skoobysnax wrote:
Welcome Empath. I like you already! I am not Muslim but many of my friends are. The best thing about your report is the intentions you set. Very focused and loving toward yourself and healing your body and soul. God always loves us I believe, it is the self love that comes hardest. Once on a DMT journey I became surrounded by dark entities, the room turned blood red and I called on Jesus to illuminate the space and the entities fled. Jesus was surrounded by a circle of spinning winglike things and inside there was a circle of people he was laying his hands on them emanating light.

That said I was not really raised in religion. The connection was more through culture but there he was. Odd. I am curious about his connection in the Qur’ān. Most so called Christians get mad when I mention it when they are being ignorant. Maybe sometime we can chat Cool

I hope there are those exploring a sustainable way to grow and harvest Iboga. I know one person in real life that it helped a lot. I hope you stay true to the path you are now on brother.

Thank you so much brother for your kind reply and sharing your wonderful experince!
Yes we believe all messengers of god was sent for our guidance and if im going to explain/share the connection of jesus in tbe quran im going to end up preaching here hehe. So pm me which app do u use so we can chat 🖐🖐

You can just PM me here if you want Smile I am recently having these experiences with Kundalini Yoga that give me this sense that we are not separate from God but that God exists within everyone and experiences his creation through our eyes and experiences. From the worst of us to the best of us. I cannot call it a knowledge yet but it is something I am beginning to feel as this practice awakens my intuition and makes me very active in being truthful, forgiving and kind as i can. I have a history somewhat like yours. Horrors of addiction. Just for me to be alive and doing good in the world is so amazing.
Marijuana, LSD, psilocybin, and DMT they all changed the way I see
But love's the only thing that ever saved my life - Sturgill Simpson "Turtles all the Way Down"

Why am I here?
 
Empath
#10 Posted : 3/20/2017 4:35:43 PM
skoobysnax wrote:
Smile
Empath wrote:
skoobysnax wrote:
Welcome Empath. I like you already! I am not Muslim but many of my friends are. The best thing about your report is the intentions you set. Very focused and loving toward yourself and healing your body and soul. God always loves us I believe, it is the self love that comes hardest. Once on a DMT journey I became surrounded by dark entities, the room turned blood red and I called on Jesus to illuminate the space and the entities fled. Jesus was surrounded by a circle of spinning winglike things and inside there was a circle of people he was laying his hands on them emanating light.

That said I was not really raised in religion. The connection was more through culture but there he was. Odd. I am curious about his connection in the Qur’ān. Most so called Christians get mad when I mention it when they are being ignorant. Maybe sometime we can chat Cool

I hope there are those exploring a sustainable way to grow and harvest Iboga. I know one person in real life that it helped a lot. I hope you stay true to the path you are now on brother.

Thank you so much brother for your kind reply and sharing your wonderful experince!
Yes we believe all messengers of god was sent for our guidance and if im going to explain/share the connection of jesus in tbe quran im going to end up preaching here hehe. So pm me which app do u use so we can chat 🖐🖐

You can just PM me here if you want Smile I am recently having these experiences with Kundalini Yoga that give me this sense that we are not separate from God but that God exists within everyone and experiences his creation through our eyes and experiences. From the worst of us to the best of us. I cannot call it a knowledge yet but it is something I am beginning to feel as this practice awakens my intuition and makes me very active in being truthful, forgiving and kind as i can. I have a history somewhat like yours. Horrors of addiction. Just for me to be alive and doing good in the world is so amazing.


hey again !

yes god over al things is a witness. but we believe hes essence exists far beyond the creation area.

peace
ali
"There are no accidents/luck, And if there are it's up to us to look at them as something else.

"So have they not #traveled through the earth and have hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, It is not eyes that are blinded, But blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts."{Qur'an}

IG account@Empath___
 
Empath
#11 Posted : 3/20/2017 4:53:17 PM
skoobysnax wrote:
Smile
Empath wrote:
skoobysnax wrote:
Welcome Empath. I like you already! I am not Muslim but many of my friends are. The best thing about your report is the intentions you set. Very focused and loving toward yourself and healing your body and soul. God always loves us I believe, it is the self love that comes hardest. Once on a DMT journey I became surrounded by dark entities, the room turned blood red and I called on Jesus to illuminate the space and the entities fled. Jesus was surrounded by a circle of spinning winglike things and inside there was a circle of people he was laying his hands on them emanating light.

That said I was not really raised in religion. The connection was more through culture but there he was. Odd. I am curious about his connection in the Qur’ān. Most so called Christians get mad when I mention it when they are being ignorant. Maybe sometime we can chat Cool

I hope there are those exploring a sustainable way to grow and harvest Iboga. I know one person in real life that it helped a lot. I hope you stay true to the path you are now on brother.

Thank you so much brother for your kind reply and sharing your wonderful experince!
Yes we believe all messengers of god was sent for our guidance and if im going to explain/share the connection of jesus in tbe quran im going to end up preaching here hehe. So pm me which app do u use so we can chat 🖐🖐

You can just PM me here if you want Smile I am recently having these experiences with Kundalini Yoga that give me this sense that we are not separate from God but that God exists within everyone and experiences his creation through our eyes and experiences. From the worst of us to the best of us. I cannot call it a knowledge yet but it is something I am beginning to feel as this practice awakens my intuition and makes me very active in being truthful, forgiving and kind as i can. I have a history somewhat like yours. Horrors of addiction. Just for me to be alive and doing good in the world is so amazing.



btw im not a member yet thus i cant pm anyone yet !
"There are no accidents/luck, And if there are it's up to us to look at them as something else.

"So have they not #traveled through the earth and have hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, It is not eyes that are blinded, But blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts."{Qur'an}

IG account@Empath___
 
skoobysnax
#12 Posted : 3/21/2017 3:44:48 AM
Hopefully u will be. I up-voted you after I read your report. Writing an intro might help in that matter. Your focus on spirituality and healing will bode well. Stick around.
Marijuana, LSD, psilocybin, and DMT they all changed the way I see
But love's the only thing that ever saved my life - Sturgill Simpson "Turtles all the Way Down"

Why am I here?
 
Empath
#13 Posted : 3/21/2017 7:15:03 AM
skoobysnax wrote:
Hopefully u will be. I up-voted you after I read your report. Writing an intro might help in that matter. Your focus on spirituality and healing will bode well. Stick around.


Thank you so much but its still the same i can only receive.

Endless blessings
"There are no accidents/luck, And if there are it's up to us to look at them as something else.

"So have they not #traveled through the earth and have hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, It is not eyes that are blinded, But blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts."{Qur'an}

IG account@Empath___
 
Handsome_Pumper
#14 Posted : 12/10/2023 1:27:20 PM
This is a truly beautiful story.
Its obvious your mother tongue is not English, that said your grasp on English is monumental.
You've really done exceptional on such a long post.
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences.

I'm curious where you are now and how things have been.
I as well had gone through my early years being escapist and hiding in harmful substances and thought patterns.

I'm not sure you will even see this, but I wish you the best.
 
Handsome_Pumper
#15 Posted : 12/10/2023 1:28:07 PM
Empath wrote:
Before I start I just want to share some personal issues, that I had PTSD and personal matters since I was a kid.

by the age of 22 I started to smoke hash mixed with opiate without any knowledge of the opiate..

furthermore that opened doors to other harmful substances from ciggirates, psychotic pills! to megadone, Xanax, cocaine, mda, mdma, fake xtc pills and much much more.

we used to cocktail lots of things and it just made me worse. Thank god I didn’t reach heroine nor crystals! That been said ive ended with a very missed up brain chemistry!
I tried to quit and I did but it was too late for me as my imaginations completely disappeared I can no longer dream I became insomniac and severely depressed.

My vision became foggy, I just felt a veil been placed between my heart and my mind! I felt overwhelmed by desperation because I couldn’t have a proper thoughts and wasting most of my time trying to put down proper thoughts as I used to be before, plus time was running from me I couldn’t feel time at all everything passes so quickly!.

I’ve been in this agony for whole 8 years! It felt like forever! I was severely lost in this emotionless void where anger , aggression, anxiety depression, an endless physical and mental torture.

Then I got introduced to LSD, psilocybin, amphetamines etc that didn’t work too! It just made me far worse than I was, plus I had more ptsd events with lucy with the wrong people! So in depth of desperation with endless loops of hating every breath of my life! I have decided to always ask god for help and guidance in achieving truth and state of tranquility from my agony.

And guess what?! God made the universe conspire to guide me to iboga! Although my faith was
weak and as a Muslim I couldn’t even feel connected while praying or whatsoever!
At first I was leaning towards ayahuasca but when I reached the island they said there is only iboga at the moment.

I didn’t even know by that time what it was! So I surrendered my well to god and decided to take the full flood leap of faith ! ( I don’t even remember the dosage but they were 8 capsules)
So I toke them at once, During the trip I was drinking fresh juice although they told me not to!

Furthermore the people who’s supposed to heal me with this were so unexperienced, and it was obvious that they just wanted to get the cash out of me without giving me any tips or any insight on what I should be expecting! Among other issues too that I would not prefer to talk about!

The leader who is supposed to mix my dose has a short memory issue which put me off The ease mode! The only thing they said is that I should be off any intoxications for a whole month, And I should shift to fruit base diet during this month. Plus they asked me to fast 8 hours before I undergo the experience.

I Forgot to note that I had H pylori bug in my stomach, And that caused me to have a very bad stomach ulcer so even with a whole month of anti bios it didn't work. So the doctor advised me to have another jar of antibio for another month!

which I couldn’t bare another month of agony! so this was another reason for me to undergo the full flood. However im not supposed to take iboga if I have ulcers but they told me its ok! And obviously you know why!

So the promised day begun! and I was laying in my bed in this amazing tropical island setting.
I popped anti nausea pill followed by the 8 capsules TA and HCL mix. 25 mins passed and I felt as if every inch on my skin was breathing! It was more of a mild vibrating sensations!

I was offered blindfolds and wax ear plugs cuz we started in the early morning.. so after the vibration sensations I heard this alien voice trying to adjust There telepathic frequencies to mine you know like when u try to find a radio frequency with statics sound.

I closed my eyes and I saw 3 grey aliens inside of space ship directly talking to me and they were trying to calm me down they said they will guide me bla bla but I was feeling there negative vibes.

Even the way they were speaking was so unsettling as if they were plotting something at that moment I had an idea what if this was a test and im supposed to pass it coming from a muslim background we believe in jinns the shapeshifting invisible ones they are satan progeny lots of them are bad but there are good ones too!

in either way we are not suppose to contact such as entities and we believe by reciting certain verses of the quran ( god revelation ) certain verses to make the bad jinns flees!

so I recited these verses and they vanished in blink of an eye ! And there negative vibes vanished with them ! So I stopped reciting ..after 10 min they became hostile and was chasing my out of body soul and once I finishes reciting again they vanish!

So I opened my eyes which I can do anytime when I want to exist the astral world and whenever I close my eyes im in that world! In other words I was fully conscious of everything. However I didn’t even reach half the experience which lasted 30 hours plus in other words that was just a starter!

I closed my eyes again and behold I see this weird square with weird waves of light and I was able to zoom in with my minds eye and boom I could see the room while my eyes closed ! I could see the busy babysitter! My hands and everything I was so happy and thinking this is so cool!

But wait its not just that I was able to float out of my body I could literally go through anything so I decided to go in the walls and the wooden furniture I was able to see the tiny fabric/molecules/atoms that forms EVERYTHING!

So I decided to see my self I was like an avatar for some reason so I decided to go inside my third eye and maaaan that was amazing the pineal gland was like ball of light that emits lights and I could even move the light in any direction it was amazing!

So I decided to zoom out of earth ! And I saw our planet but soon I stopped! I had limited access to further places and there was these weird shaped things 5 or 6 of them like robots? with red dot inside of them my guts told me they are another people who is astral projecting perhaps or maybe something I couldn’t understand!

And then I decided to come back to my body and lets get to business .. before I start my trip I wrote down the things I wanted to change or to know. So I was going step by step .. I toke out the paper barely reading the first sentience ( delete past fears and traumas) .. and every time I read one of my tasks I see numbers of lights downloads from top of me directly to my brain/heart !

I saw myself sitting in a chair with huge screen In front of me and I vividly remember every details I was using my left eye as a mouse pad ! Shifting through pictures and squeezing my eye to deletes! And all the frames were presented as negative bad experiences from the past and there were at least thousands frames!

I got tired after few scrolling so I decided to delete them all ! I said delete all and woosh! Everything was deleted and I felt much lighter ! But then my heart was almost exploding from heavy palpations as if its going to jump out of my chest! That stayed the whole trip ! Was so annoyed at times.

I felt lonely and scared most of the time however i was happy abit from this mystical experience !
Then I decided to ask why are we here and what is our purpose ! It showed me a screen with male and female figure with DNA symbol and other stuff which I didn’t completely understand and I looked up and there was some writings in the stars it said in arabic We did not create anything aimlessly !

I was like wooohhh! Then it showed me how everything was created to complement everything else and how everything is submitting to the well and law of the creator! Also how when we speak we understand these vibrations from our lips to our ears .. but with the creator he says be and it becomes a vibrational spiral creation !

It was sooo deep its really hard to put everything into words .. it also showed me multitudes of people engaging in a fierce war! there were a line between them as if these multitudes were halved into 2 groups the ones on the left side were emitting fire and the ones on the right side emitting light!

Then I saw strings came out of them with each string represented our modern day war from psychologically, spiritual and physical ongoing war through food water tv phones computers and much more that I cant remember.

I was very convinced and it literally shut me up for any similar questions and doubts I had in my mind.

Forgot to to mention that I was in sever pain from my ulcers and from my crazy heart palpitations I was getting paranoid at a time thinking that my heart was about to explode. Then I decided to heal my body!

This was so different as I felt something really heavy sealing my legs to the bed as if it didn’t want me to move because I was constantly turning on my sides from the pain. I felt this vibrational snake/worm? entering my body from bottom and swirling upward it was everywhere trying to detect a disease or a defect and when it does it focus on it and vibrates like crazy on the defect for a minute and a pop sound comes out!

Then it searches again for another defect until it reached my heart and it opened 4 arteries and man I felt amazing afterward the heart pressure pounding disappeared and I felt at complete ease ! New born like!
It moved to my ulcer and it just went full throttle on it and it was so painful the baby sitter advised me to pop valium to end the trip ! But I was persisting! I saw shamanic figure blue and violet while my eyes open floating near my face it was weird! Cuz I didn’t feel negative vibrations from them like how I felt with the greys!

The vibrational snake finished its thing from bottom till top of my head then I closed my eyes while reciting few words from quran and man I had the best experience ever !

I saw my self as a soul of light curling up in speed of light in space and my whole soul entered this huuuuge sphere of light and I felt craaaaaaaaazzzzy amount of loooooove it was the ultimate XTC the ultimate joy blissful unity love!

Words cannot explain how my serotonins were splashing in my brain! Then a nebula like figure appeared i really didn’t know what it is but it appeared while I was under this eminence love state it had a red dot in middle of it and it started to bounce!

Furthermore I heard biwiti tribal song that I heard before as a if it tells me u got through u fulfilled the test !Long story short I had a major breakthrough with this the next day woke up and my bed was filled with sweat!

I went to the toilet and had white stool ! and I felt so weak and disconnected but after days I felt amaaaaazing everything I wanted happened to me even more !

Words cant describe the state which I was in it was a major afterglow for a month! When I move my hand the traces just freeze I could see the wind urgh its out of this world what an experience! No insomnia I my vivid imaginations and dreams is back! I can see clearly now ! I can breath easily ! I used to have shaky hand and all gone!

My mind and body litrally healed itself in all aspects! I started to eat healthy again food tastes amazing eso fruits and veg!

I became closer to the creator and I know im in a mission to spread hes gift to us hes revelation and one of hes amazing cures iboga! I just feel alive again! After long depressing life! I can see how lovely life is in nature and everything!

everything feels amazing I feel blissed! no more depression no more pain! I can feel time got slower and my thoughts is in tranquil state! 2 years have passed and ive never felt better .. learned and still learning ..i have a strong memory now! I just feel smarter! guidance through dreams and visions is happening to me!

This was so unexpected to me like god and religion would be involved in everything! Overwhelming, power beauty, joy, ultimate liberation, freedom, rebirth, born again, forgiven, wiped clean, deep wisdom and knowledge downloaded directly , ultimate healing, we are all one in sight of god but not equal in deeds! It felt so real that made this life looks fake!

I have a feeling that im protected all time! I even have angels? waking me up for morning prayer sometimes in dreams and sometimes they ask me to wake up gently or they make a sound in the room ! I know it sounds out of this world but I feel so grateful to be chosen to be awake after long sleep!

Always Remember there are no such a thing as accidents or luck if there are its up to us to look at them as something else ! Guidance are everywhere ! Know god to set you on your straight path.

I would like to share few verses of the quran which relates to my experience:

So have they not #traveled through the earth and have #hearts by which to reason and ears by which to hear? For indeed, it is not eyes that are blinded, but blinded are the hearts which are within the breasts.

We will show them our signs in the horizons and within themselves until it becomes clear to them that it is the truth.but is it not sufficient concerning your lord that he is over all things a witness.

Is he whose breast God has opened to submission, and becomes guided, so that he follows a light from his Lord …?, like he whose heart He has sealed [with disbelief]? — this [understanding of the ellipsis] is indicated by [what follows]. So woe — an expression indicating ‘chastisement’ — to those whose hearts have been hardened against the remembrance of God ( allah ), that is, [hardened] against the acceptance of the Qur’ān. Such are in manifest error..

It is Allah that takes the souls (of men) at death; and those that die not (He takes) during their sleep: those on whom He has passed the decree of death, He keeps back (from returning to life), but the rest He sends (to their bodies) for a term appointed verily in this are Signs for those who reflect.

There is also a long one basically describes people of heaven will be the ones who handed there books of deed in there right hand and people of fire which will be handed there book on there left hand just how I saw in my iboga trip !

Excuse my English as its not my mother language.

May peace and blessings and guidance of god light be upon you all!

Ali



Maybe quoting will send a notification you may see.
 
jungleheart
Senior Member
#16 Posted : 12/12/2023 6:46:31 PM
Very uplifting report! Thanks for sharing. It's so nice to see how things can change for the better in an instance. Gives me a lot of hope for my future and for humanity in general.

Peace.
 
Pandora
Welcoming committeeSenior Member
#17 Posted : 12/16/2023 1:58:26 PM
Beautiful trip report. Wow that iboga is amazing medicine. And wow, the heart stuff is very scary indeed.

I am so glad you came out of it okay and so deeply and long term healed.

I did a flood about 13 years ago and it still sticks with me. What a privelege to experience such a thing within this lifetime.
"But even if nothing lasts and everything is lost, there is still the intrinsic value of the moment. The present moment, ultimately, is more than enough, a gift of grace and unfathomable value, which our friend and lover death paints in stark relief."
-Rick Doblin, Ph.D. MAPS President, MAPS Bulletin Vol. XX, No. 1, pg. 2


Hyperspace LOVES YOU
 
 
Users browsing this forum
Guest

DMT-Nexus theme created by The Traveler
This page was generated in 0.126 seconds.