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Great trip report! Thanks so much for sharing that.
Your entity encounter sounds gorgeous, intense, fascinating and very DMT. Personally I find the higher and faster I dose DMT the more likely my entities are going to be kind of pushy in their approach - lunging towards me, totally up in my hyperface.
And I agree with your end assessment. The key is surrender and letting go. I don't believe pushy entities can be fought. I've tried using words and talking to them, making requests. In my experience they are not interested and not taking requests when they are pushy. It's more that they are curious about who we are and how we got there.
A blindfold or Mindfold (a brand of blindfold that blocks all light) might help you hold onto your visions, but I must admit even with closed eyes there are many distractions within a DMT trip.
I hope you meet her again and it is more comfortable. Anything is impossible. Thanks again.
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