Today I went on my fifth Ayahuasca trip. It was the classic mix of chacruna and caapi. This was by far the most vivid, complex, profound, and revelatory trip I've had on Ayahuasca or anything for that matter. It not only defied my expectations but it defied our typical western/modern conception of reality. The brew I drank this time was incredibly potent and concentrated, and it did not take much to get started. I was with friend chatting outdoors, waiting for the effects to onset. I was slowly sipping the whole time over the period of about a half hour.

The first effect that onset was the emotional openness, and I got an opportunity to use this when somebody I had fell out with walked up to me at that moment. I used that time to make up with them. Me, the one friend (an older man than me by far, with his own experience in plant medicine due to his indigenous background), and the person I had just made up with walked to another location that was more in nature. We walked around the area and talked, and then the effects of the trip proper began to kick in and the "carrier wave" sound onset.

The beginning of the psychedelic experience was deceptively playful. I would shut my eyes and listen to different music and see how the CEVs changed with the sound. It was fun, more or less. My one friend however was getting annoyed with my flippant attitude. It was at that moment that he warned me. This is not a toy. This is a medicine. This is to be respected. He told me I should cut back on it and next time I drink I should go with him and we'd have our own actual ritual. Soon, I began to think of my spouse. Once they crossed my mind I had to go see them, so I walked back home (it was a short walk) and went to go see them.

They were occupied with something, but was aware that I had taken the dose and so they recommended I go in my room and sit and try to get into a good space. I cannot specify why, but my spouse has a strong connection to psychedelics to the point where they get visuals even when not on the medicine. I was upset that they couldn't be in the room with me, but they told me to look for them in my visions over text from the other room. I told them I saw tunnels. They told me "I'm in one, look again". I look again and I saw a translucent female face with long flowing hair, and the dark shades between the hair strands were filled in by a rainbow flowing down the hair in a wavey fashion. I looked at my phone and they said that I saw them.

I wasn't so sure about the whole seeing her thing, but when describing to her what I saw she finished my sentence about a very specific aspect of the figure, so there's no doubt in my mind. I also saw her on my first ayahuasca trip in very vivid fashion during on open eye visual, so I had the sense that they could visit me in that space, but now it's confirmed. This was by far the most profound part of this trip. Telepathy occurred. I don't really know how to go forward with it, but in my eyes it gives a lot of legitimacy to the world DMT sends you to. Speaking of that world-

The visual aspect during the peak of this trip touched on some of the most fantastical parts of my imagination and wildest dreams, to where I can only describe it as magical. It took the form of what I'd call absolute fantasy. It didn't necessarily have ties to a certain time period or place or culture or anything (although it often seemed to take on a "dungeons and dragons" look at points). It was just total fantasy and my imagination was the only limits. A motif of note in the visions was the precense of crystalline entities and structures. There were a lot of lights and darks. Striking vivid colors with a dark backdrop depicting shifting crystalline architecture and wizards with crystal staffs. It kind of reminded me blackreach from Skyrim, or Kingdom Hearts, or the astral observatory on Majora's mask, or the comet observatory on Super Mario Galaxy. It was all the magic and wonder and awe from my earliest childhood, and it nearly brought me to tears. Here is some pictures that kind of show what I mean-





However, despite these beautiful visions and the telepathy, this wonderful experience was not fun and games. While this *was* the imagery and I did get much joy from it, it was interspersed with stark moments of self criticism and reflection from everything to my excessive headphone use, neglect of physical health in some areas, neglect of important things in my life, and other pressing concerns. It really held me to the fire. You see after I left the area where my friends to go see my spouse, things got pretty intense once I was sitting in my room and not entirely pleasant. It affirmed what my friend said. It may show beautiful worlds of magic but it is NOT just a game. There's something real to this. It can be consequencial and in order to do well in this realm you must show it and the plant medicine proper respect worthy of something so profound.

What struck me was the sheer richness of the experience. It covered the full spectrum of emotions and senses and thoughts and each combination of the three shone it it's highest complexity and intensity, like a curry with rich and complex and varied flavorings.

After this trip I'm probably going to take a break from Ayahuasca. Not because I dislike it but because this one is going to take more time than others to integrate. I do believe that over-exposure to that space can result in being partially stuck there which would very well manifest as madness, so I want to be more careful and respectful and integrate. I plan to wait at least a week or two, maybe more before returning to it. This truly was a emotional and mystical, magical even experience. I also no longer can deny the telepathic capabilities of this plant because I saw it with my own eyes. This is serious stuff and I feel so priveliged to have gotten to use it. I'm probably gonna keep it to myself in real life because it would make me sound crazy, but I know it is true and I'm happy living with this knowledge.

Thanks for reading to the end. I'd be interested to see if anybody else experienced telepathy. I hope you can get something from reading this.