That is amazing. Also, very nice of you to share your mescaline with your friends. Personally, I have the same problem you mentioned with trying so hard to be aware of how the other people are feelings. For example, making sure they feel okay and don't need anything. Especially if I am the gatekeeper of sorts ( providing the psychedelics, food, house ).
Terrence Speaks briefly about this in one of his lectures. I agree with Terrence when he says this is ONE of the reasons why he prefers to trip alone.
Don't get me wrong. I love tripping with friends. Perhaps only 1 though. I find tripping with others can be very deep and helps with understanding the individual you are tripping with. It deepens the relationship you have with the person also.
Thank you for sharing your mescaline experience.
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